Unrelated story: My mom is an animal hoarder, a really bad one, we've had probably over 70 cats, 95% of them died because she can't take care of animals. The reason why so many is because she started with 8 cats, 3 boys and 5 girls, None of them were fixed which caused them to breed like crazy and what can I say, We ended up with too many, She said it was all fine and that it would be OK, But these cats were suffering, It was already expensive enough to feed them, And they weren't trained to go in the litter either which caused the whole house to smell absolutely horrible, It was so bad that I believe that the ammonia caused the cats to catch a sickness which would wipe almost all of them out, Keep in mind I was an innocent eight year old who just wanted to play Little Big Planet but instead had to see cat corpses with their f♥♥♥♥ faces rotting off, Having multiple autistic mental breakdowns at 9 because of this really sucked, Finally in Aug 2018 I went to Florida where I eventually got to move in with my dad until he was arrested 2 weeks ago because nothing can be f♥♥♥♥ normal in my life, And I'm now back with my mother in the same situation, Except with dogs. :)
I did lose my favourite cats, Moe Moe and Tom, Moe Moe got bit by a German Shepherd, Broke his jaw, We took him to the vet where they suggested to put him down, 9 year old me was heartbroken, But we did have the choice to keep him which we obviously did, We had to feed him ourselves until he was able to eat by himself, But eventually he did escape outdoors where he went to our neighbors lawn, That was the last time I saw him. I assume he was either killed by Steve my neighbor or died outside in the wild. I still dream about Moe rarely.
Tom got hit by a car, Instantly perished when hit. There was a lot of blood, Hit me so hard, I was beginning to think that god hated me and wanted to bring nothing but sadness into my life. We buried him next to a huge boulder next to our home, Where I would bring flowers to the grave everyday and pray for him.
I don't know if I can help you much in this situation but I felt like saying this