Years in Review. (Possible TW)

[JoeOwO]

You know

I think it's very important to reflect on your life

I think it's important to realize how far you've come despite everything you've been through. If you ever feel terrible I hope you all just realize that you've come so far and you still have your whole life ahead of you. You're strong in your own way and I'm so proud of you.



That being said

Here's my years in review

2015-2018

In 2015 I was in an abusive relationship with my first love. I was isolated and every day was a waking nightmare. It got so bad that I would cry myself to sleep every night. I would often wake up numb and spend the day either crying or upset. I had no one to talk to. I was in emotional pain nearly every day and I would often turn to self-harm and I've attempted suicide on multiple occasions. I suffered from frequent mental breakdowns.

I was still with my ex but I had gotten better. Things had calmed down and I was slowly recovering. I was distracting myself and getting involved with witchcraft and spirituality. Overall I was doing much better. I felt enlightened and I was generally satisfied with my life and relationship.

2017 was messy. It really and truly was. I spent my summer and actually most of the year the way I spent 2015. I joined this server during the summer. I met new people and I made some friends. I even met someone that's really close to my heart. But by the middle of summer I was relapsing and it was worse. I was aware of how I felt and would try explaining and finding a reason. Mental breakdowns would occur often but this time I found myself to be more aggressive. I would often feel as if I was more than one person. I had developed BPD as a result of 2015. I couldn't seem to get happy and hatred fueled me. I turned to self-harm and alcohol. By December I was a wreck.

So far 2018 has been good to me. I finally caught my break after a roller coaster of emotions. I'm not perfect and I still have my depressive and manic episodes. I made some good friends and I'm with someone that's very loving and supportive. I really have come very far in my short life and I still have so many years to go. I have hope in my heart and I am truly at peace with myself for once.


I really hope you enjoyed this. I really encourage all of you to reflect on your lives and to be proud of yourselves. You're all strong people.

Don't ever give up. There's always hope and things will get much better

There are people that are here for you and people who will always be here to hear you out.

If you are feeling depressed or suicidal: Please seek help or talk to someone about it. It's so very important. Feeling isolated and alone won't do any good for you. You are so very strong and I promise you it will get better.


Well now there's really nothing else to say. I hope you enjoyed reading about my personal life. Goodnight

 

[Pandeee]

damn
your ok rn thats what matters

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[JoeOwO]

damn
your ok rn thats what matters

It's better to live in the present than the past But always be wary of the future ;O

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[-Sunny-]

You know

I think it's very important to reflect on your life

I think it's important to realize how far you've come despite everything you've been through. If you ever feel terrible I hope you all just realize that you've come so far and you still have your whole life ahead of you. You're strong in your own way and I'm so proud of you.



That being said

Here's my years in review

2015-2018

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In 2015 I was in an abusive relationship with my first love. I was isolated and every day was a waking nightmare. It got so bad that I would cry myself to sleep every night. I would often wake up numb and spend the day either crying or upset. I had no one to talk to. I was in emotional pain nearly every day and I would often turn to self-harm and I've attempted suicide on multiple occasions. I suffered from frequent mental breakdowns.

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I was still with my ex but I had gotten better. Things had calmed down and I was slowly recovering. I was distracting myself and getting involved with witchcraft and spirituality. Overall I was doing much better. I felt enlightened and I was generally satisfied with my life and relationship.
View attachment 124664
2017 was messy. It really and truly was. I spent my summer and actually most of the year the way I spent 2015. I joined this server during the summer. I met new people and I made some friends. I even met someone that's really close to my heart. But by the middle of summer I was relapsing and it was worse. I was aware of how I felt and would try explaining and finding a reason. Mental breakdowns would occur often but this time I found myself to be more aggressive. I would often feel as if I was more than one person. I had developed BPD as a result of 2015. I couldn't seem to get happy and hatred fueled me. I turned to self-harm and alcohol. By December I was a wreck.
View attachment 124665
So far 2018 has been good to me. I finally caught my break after a roller coaster of emotions. I'm not perfect and I still have my depressive and manic episodes. I made some good friends and I'm with someone that's very loving and supportive. I really have come very far in my short life and I still have so many years to go. I have hope in my heart and I am truly at peace with myself for once.


I really hope you enjoyed this. I really encourage all of you to reflect on your lives and to be proud of yourselves. You're all strong people.

Don't ever give up. There's always hope and things will get much better

There are people that are here for you and people who will always be here to hear you out.

If you are feeling depressed or suicidal: Please seek help or talk to someone about it. It's so very important. Feeling isolated and alone won't do any good for you. You are so very strong and I promise you it will get better.


Well now there's really nothing else to say. I hope you enjoyed reading about my personal life. Goodnight

I've had a rough year. Mostly when i started middleschool. You would'nt expect it from me, but im very shy. I whas always sitting alone.. only trough gaming.. i could feel happy again, where i did have friends. And people cared about me. I met blue then, and he whas one of my best friends, I still can remeber the day we met. I whas wearing a small bunny skin, and he a small derp steve.. it sounds a bit stupid.. but with that small match. A spark ignited.. we always played MM with eachother playing "the Tiny people". Or we always teamed in MM (even though its not aloud). But i had a great time.. When i whas back home, in tears from school.. i could finally rest and get back. He reported me once. For having a small skin.. even though he started wearing a smaller skin than I.. i whas mad about that. But i let it go.. weeks and months..? Past by, I realised he "liked" me. Until one day he asked the question you might all know. That whas in may.. I say about 1-2 weeks later. He started acting weird.. and his pvp improved. He claimed he whas on windows 10. And i believed him.. Before i know.. i joined the server. And i heared him talking to ssunsett. Like: Wait, No! Ssunsett i would never hack! When i joined.. i knew what whas going on.. and right in front of my eyes. He got banned. To never be seen again. Here I am talking about him. He stil hasnt returned. Ive lost a great friend.. And my old friends. Like IvanDiamonPlay, he never seems to be online anymore. School got better for me. I earned 2 new friends. Wich i hang out with. Even though im still the weird girl in my class. But thats OK. Im left-handed, Creative.. And somethimes when i listen music, I can just stand still and forget the pain. I walked a dog.. He whas my best buddy.. until his owner died.. and he went to the pound.. to never be seen again.. Yes, life is hard and painfull. But i'd like to forget those sad moments. Amd just enjoy the good ones. So on mc i try to be as happy as possible. So that others might feel the same way... A new year started. Now im in the next class.. But i can remember my past so clearly.. And i wish i could go back. To my old friends, to that dog, that always made my laugh.

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[Dog_Lover1098]

You know

I think it's very important to reflect on your life

I think it's important to realize how far you've come despite everything you've been through. If you ever feel terrible I hope you all just realize that you've come so far and you still have your whole life ahead of you. You're strong in your own way and I'm so proud of you.



That being said

Here's my years in review

2015-2018

View attachment 124662
In 2015 I was in an abusive relationship with my first love. I was isolated and every day was a waking nightmare. It got so bad that I would cry myself to sleep every night. I would often wake up numb and spend the day either crying or upset. I had no one to talk to. I was in emotional pain nearly every day and I would often turn to self-harm and I've attempted suicide on multiple occasions. I suffered from frequent mental breakdowns.

View attachment 124663
I was still with my ex but I had gotten better. Things had calmed down and I was slowly recovering. I was distracting myself and getting involved with witchcraft and spirituality. Overall I was doing much better. I felt enlightened and I was generally satisfied with my life and relationship.
View attachment 124664
2017 was messy. It really and truly was. I spent my summer and actually most of the year the way I spent 2015. I joined this server during the summer. I met new people and I made some friends. I even met someone that's really close to my heart. But by the middle of summer I was relapsing and it was worse. I was aware of how I felt and would try explaining and finding a reason. Mental breakdowns would occur often but this time I found myself to be more aggressive. I would often feel as if I was more than one person. I had developed BPD as a result of 2015. I couldn't seem to get happy and hatred fueled me. I turned to self-harm and alcohol. By December I was a wreck.
View attachment 124665
So far 2018 has been good to me. I finally caught my break after a roller coaster of emotions. I'm not perfect and I still have my depressive and manic episodes. I made some good friends and I'm with someone that's very loving and supportive. I really have come very far in my short life and I still have so many years to go. I have hope in my heart and I am truly at peace with myself for once.


I really hope you enjoyed this. I really encourage all of you to reflect on your lives and to be proud of yourselves. You're all strong people.

Don't ever give up. There's always hope and things will get much better

There are people that are here for you and people who will always be here to hear you out.

If you are feeling depressed or suicidal: Please seek help or talk to someone about it. It's so very important. Feeling isolated and alone won't do any good for you. You are so very strong and I promise you it will get better.


Well now there's really nothing else to say. I hope you enjoyed reading about my personal life. Goodnight

No one deserves or should go through that. I'm happy that u got out of that horrible cycle bcuz if u didn't stop it, who knows what might have happened. You are such a strong person for making it through that and stopping it even though it seemed hard at times. You are such an inspiration and ur an example that things can get better! :3333 I hope u succeed and get everything u want in life and know that u can make it through any obstacle u face ❤❤❤

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[Dog_Lover1098]

I've had a rough year. Mostly when i started middleschool. You would'nt expect it from me, but im very shy. I whas always sitting alone.. only trough gaming.. i could feel happy again, where i did have friends. And people cared about me. I met blue then, and he whas one of my best friends, I still can remeber the day we met. I whas wearing a small bunny skin, and he a small derp steve.. it sounds a bit stupid.. but with that small match. A spark ignited.. we always played MM with eachother playing "the Tiny people". Or we always teamed in MM (even though its not aloud). But i had a great time.. When i whas back home, in tears from school.. i could finally rest and get back. He reported me once. For having a small skin.. even though he started wearing a smaller skin than I.. i whas mad about that. But i let it go.. weeks and months..? Past by, I realised he "liked" me. Until one day he asked the question you might all know. That whas in may.. I say about 1-2 weeks later. He started acting weird.. and his pvp improved. He claimed he whas on windows 10. And i believed him.. Before i know.. i joined the server. And i heared him talking to ssunsett. Like: Wait, No! Ssunsett i would never hack! When i joined.. i knew what whas going on.. and right in front of my eyes. He got banned. To never be seen again. Here I am talking about him. He stil hasnt returned. Ive lost a great friend.. And my old friends. Like IvanDiamonPlay, he never seems to be online anymore. School got better for me. I earned 2 new friends. Wich i hang out with. Even though im still the weird girl in my class. But thats OK. Im left-handed, Creative.. And somethimes when i listen music, I can just stand still and forget the pain. I walked a dog.. He whas my best buddy.. until his owner died.. and he went to the pound.. to never be seen again.. Yes, life is hard and painfull. But i'd like to forget those sad moments. Amd just enjoy the good ones. So on mc i try to be as happy as possible. So that others might feel the same way... A new year started. Now im in the next class.. But i can remember my past so clearly.. And i wish i could go back. To my old friends, to that dog, that always made my laugh.

Dont dwell in the past. I have a few friends on brokenlens that I almost never see on and I do miss them a lot but I try meeting as many ppl as I can and make new friends. Sometimes I wish things were how they were back then but now that I found happiness and friendship in more ppl I look forward to the future. So be willing to accept new ppl into ur life and I promise u, it will be fun ALSO middle school is funnn! Enjoy the time u have there and join clubs and anything ur school offers. I was very shy when I went into middle school but ever since I got involved with different things, it's made me have a lot more friends bcuz u meet a lot of ppl from those things xD I'm a shy potato again tho xD bUt dOn't bE lIkE mE I mean unless u like being a shy potato then gIrL u do u! Lol

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[B3N]

First of all, I'm glad you're doing better!

Second of all, your drawings have improved so much over the years!

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