Something new and weird

[BananaMuffin]

Okay, so, I’ve wanted to do this for a while, so now I’m doing it, so a lot of the time I don’t have anyone to vent to, so I thought writing down what I’m thinking and posting it here for others to see and give their opinions on might make me feel less lonely haha. Everything I write will be word for word what I’m thinking at that time, or when I wrote it heh. Sorry if there’s a lot of word repetition I think fast so thinking complicated or bigger words is hard. Does that make sense? Anyway..



Omg that weird drill thing the plumber is using might make me go crazy, maybe I’m already crazy. Am I a sociopath? I need to stop or I really will go crazy. He won’t stop…okay I think he stopped now…nope, still going…okay he stopped…I think.

Man, the minute I want to start writing down my thoughts I stop thinking about anything. Rather irritating.

Happier is such a bop. The music video made me cry twice. No I think that’s the first time a music video has made me cry. I mean, I think.

I don’t even like Sam Smith’s new song yet it’s stuck in my head, it is playing right now so that’s probably why.

I look like an ugly mess.

He was someone for me to talk to when everyone else left, he understands me more than anyone else I’ve ever known. He was all I had left. Toby’s gone, Timothy’s basically gone. Benjy, Leo, Cheesy. Who’s still here?

I give off this persona that I’m really tough and that I don’t care about anyone or anything, but I do. I get attached to literally everything, and when that person or thing disappears I break down. I remember when you could team with other teams on MB and we’d either wait till the map was super small and see who survived last, or do ffa and even though I was crappy at pvp at the time I had the time of my life. All of those people are gone, except Pandee and party + all the ♥♥♥♥♥y ones. A lot of people like to say that Mb isn’t as toxic as other people say it is, but when you’ve been around so long, and it went from nobody caring about levels or wins and just having fun, to the most disrespectful human beings I’ve ever met with the biggest egos and smallest brains, and yes it might be a “block game” but I met some of my closest friends on that “block game” and they’re all gone.

Remembering the past keeps me sane. And Christmas, me love Christmas. I remember the year I got my first tablet, even though I had to share it with my sisters it was the best thing ever. Then addie threw It and it broke. Stupid addie.

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yeah i have weird thoughts lol

 

[Dog_Lover1098]

Yea it's sad when ur friends leave or without notice. Eventually, like everyone else usually says, we all have to leave at some point but it makes u want to make sure u have a good time with those friends before they end up leaving idek if that made sense lol and I have never heard the song happier xD

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[XxjwmcxX]

This is not gonna make sense btw cuz I’m writing this fast hehe

The first time I watched the Shane Dawson thing I legit thought like everyone were sociopaths it was intense omg I still think my old best friend who ditched the squad for popularity is a sociopath

I love Happier so much but it’s not a song that I got super attached with like some songs I’ll listen to for hours but that song I didn’t im not sure why cuz it’s a good song hmm maybe other people are the same cu the song never really blew up

Sam smith not my type hehe

We are twinning with the ugly mess yay!

I got you I feel like most people I used to be tight with are somewhat gone or changed or there’s like a tension that holds me back ehhh I mean I still have some good friends but like it’s sad to see people you used to be 100% with act like we were nothing hehe also now I feel like a loser being upset over people I met I’ve Minecraft also now I’m mad cuz I hate complainers and I’m complaining

I definitely feel like I kinda play a character sometimes that’s really weird and stupid like someone who’s always laughing and always happy which I’m not exactly. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not acting, like most things I say are what I’m thinking to say but sometimes I feel like I’m make things more dramatic. I think most people might not totally know is that I think a lot lot lot about things I do and I feel like I notice things that most people don’t idek. With the MB thing, I wasn’t there for the early mb like I came when your mb kinda “era” was ending so I can’t really connect to you with that but with oitc I definetly saw how things changed which was pretty upsetting. When I first started, teaming was obviously a big thing which I played apart of which I feel like outsiders didn’t really understand. The “team” I felt like was kinda like a big family which after the 1.2 update was basically destroyed. People left, people changed, the vibe was different, people started caring about wins etc. The first time I learned about /ldb was when I had like 800 oitc wins. I feel stupid cuz I tell people not to dwell on the past and to just work on the future but I’m legit complaining about the past but whatever hehe also I’m rambling so I’ll stop gugugle

Omg I love everything about Christmas teehee even tho usually my parents get like one big present for one of the kids which is kinda unfair but it’s still fun hehe my whole fam comes together and it’s hella lit WOOHOOO

SQUEALS

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[BananaMuffin]

This is not gonna make sense btw cuz I’m writing this fast hehe

The first time I watched the Shane Dawson thing I legit thought like everyone were sociopaths it was intense omg I still think my old best friend who ditched the squad for popularity is a sociopath

I love Happier so much but it’s not a song that I got super attached with like some songs I’ll listen to for hours but that song I didn’t im not sure why cuz it’s a good song hmm maybe other people are the same cu the song never really blew up

Sam smith not my type hehe

We are twinning with the ugly mess yay!

I got you I feel like most people I used to be tight with are somewhat gone or changed or there’s like a tension that holds me back ehhh I mean I still have some good friends but like it’s sad to see people you used to be 100% with act like we were nothing hehe also now I feel like a loser being upset over people I met I’ve Minecraft also now I’m mad cuz I hate complainers and I’m complaining

I definitely feel like I kinda play a character sometimes that’s really weird and stupid like someone who’s always laughing and always happy which I’m not exactly. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not acting, like most things I say are what I’m thinking to say but sometimes I feel like I’m make things more dramatic. I think most people might not totally know is that I think a lot lot lot about things I do and I feel like I notice things that most people don’t idek. With the MB thing, I wasn’t there for the early mb like I came when your mb kinda “era” was ending so I can’t really connect to you with that but with oitc I definetly saw how things changed which was pretty upsetting. When I first started, teaming was obviously a big thing which I played apart of which I feel like outsiders didn’t really understand. The “team” I felt like was kinda like a big family which after the 1.2 update was basically destroyed. People left, people changed, the vibe was different, people started caring about wins etc. The first time I learned about /ldb was when I had like 800 oitc wins. I feel stupid cuz I tell people not to dwell on the past and to just work on the future but I’m legit complaining about the past but whatever hehe also I’m rambling so I’ll stop gugugle

Omg I love everything about Christmas teehee even tho usually my parents get like one big present for one of the kids which is kinda unfair but it’s still fun hehe my whole fam comes together and it’s hella lit WOOHOOO

SQUEALS

lol me too i thought literally everyone was a sociopath after that therapist said 1 in 25 people were one

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[Ripcord]

My thoughts:

I'm prob one of the ♥♥♥♥♥y people
Why am I reading
I'm hungry
I've too many things to do
I should prob post this now

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[BananaMuffin]

My thoughts:

I'm prob one of the ♥♥♥♥♥y people
Why am I reading
I'm hungry
I've too many things to do
I should prob post this now

wtf you barely play mb no

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[Ripcord]

wtf you barely play mb no

Now I barely play mc lol correction: I don't play mc anymore

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[RagingSkull]

I'm not gone yet i'm still alive and well but i know i didn't tell you that i was leaving tbh I should. I still can't tell the difference of a psychopath or sociopath but that's okay, I'll probably won't be on forums that much anymore.

you shouldn't feel bad about yourself I believe you are beautiful the way you are. Your personality makes you what you are and you seem very lovely to me.

Anyway Meeting you was the best moment of my life, You should keep being positive and even though some people are toxic in basically any game you can't escape from it, but the same thing happened to me too. I remember my old friends and i still miss them but some ppl might say to move on but you should keep honoring them for the times you had fun with them btw it was fun playing with you and even though we met like 2016, 2017? I honestly forgot but you were the best person to talk to you still made me feel like a jerk but that's okay.

I feel like a average person to be honest I don't really know, even though i used to play a lot the game changed when you needed xbox live to play servers like why? Most of my friends left and i don't know how to feel about it Some people i known a long time some people i recently met i don't know them a lot even if its a friend of my old friends, I don't know how i feel about the past or future i didn't have a lot of friends since, I pretty much didn't care about how bad i play or something like that tbh it was better when there was less hackers I pretty much think there's really nothing to do at lvl 1000 at all even although i don't play mb at all i'll still play mb with you i didn't really have a lot of experience on the server so yeah that's basically what i got for now

I like christmas too It's pretty fun Even although most of my toys i received on christmas required batteries so it wasn't fun last christmas but christmas 2015 or whatever year was fun for me playing in the snow was so much fun, I also like halloween i remember going to my 2nd trick or treating and it was fun but i don't go trick or treating anymore because of how tall i am.

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[B3N]

I'm not gone yet i'm still alive and well but i know i didn't tell you that i was leaving tbh I should. I still can't tell the difference of a psychopath or sociopath but that's okay, I'll probably won't be on forums that much anymore.

you shouldn't feel bad about yourself I believe you are beautiful the way you are. Your personality makes you what you are and you seem very lovely to me.

Anyway Meeting you was the best moment of my life, You should keep being positive and even though some people are toxic in basically any game you can't escape from it, but the same thing happened to me too. I remember my old friends and i still miss them but some ppl might say to move on but you should keep honoring them for the times you had fun with them btw it was fun playing with you and even though we met like 2016, 2017? I honestly forgot but you were the best person to talk to you still made me feel like a jerk but that's okay.

I feel like a average person to be honest I don't really know, even though i used to play a lot the game changed when you needed xbox live to play servers like why? Most of my friends left and i don't know how to feel about it Some people i known a long time some people i recently met i don't know them a lot even if its a friend of my old friends, I don't know how i feel about the past or future i didn't have a lot of friends since, I pretty much didn't care about how bad i play or something like that tbh it was better when there was less hackers I pretty much think there's really nothing to do at lvl 1000 at all even although i don't play mb at all i'll still play mb with you i didn't really have a lot of experience on the server so yeah that's basically what i got for now

I like christmas too It's pretty fun Even although most of my toys i received on christmas required batteries so it wasn't fun last christmas but christmas 2015 or whatever year was fun for me playing in the snow was so much fun, I also like halloween i remember going to my 2nd trick or treating and it was fun but i don't go trick or treating anymore because of how tall i am.

How tall are you?

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[Ripcord]

Yall got some weird thoughts

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[BananaMuffin]

I'm not gone yet i'm still alive and well but i know i didn't tell you that i was leaving tbh I should. I still can't tell the difference of a psychopath or sociopath but that's okay, I'll probably won't be on forums that much anymore."

you shouldn't feel bad about yourself I believe you are beautiful the way you are. Your personality makes you what you are and you seem very lovely to me.

Anyway Meeting you was the best moment of my life, You should keep being positive and even though some people are toxic in basically any game you can't escape from it, but the same thing happened to me too. I remember my old friends and i still miss them but some ppl might say to move on but you should keep honoring them for the times you had fun with them btw it was fun playing with you and even though we met like 2016, 2017? I honestly forgot but you were the best person to talk to you still made me feel like a jerk but that's okay.

I feel like a average person to be honest I don't really know, even though i used to play a lot the game changed when you needed xbox live to play servers like why? Most of my friends left and i don't know how to feel about it Some people i known a long time some people i recently met i don't know them a lot even if its a friend of my old friends, I don't know how i feel about the past or future i didn't have a lot of friends since, I pretty much didn't care about how bad i play or something like that tbh it was better when there was less hackers I pretty much think there's really nothing to do at lvl 1000 at all even although i don't play mb at all i'll still play mb with you i didn't really have a lot of experience on the server so yeah that's basically what i got for now

I like christmas too It's pretty fun Even although most of my toys i received on christmas required batteries so it wasn't fun last christmas but christmas 2015 or whatever year was fun for me playing in the snow was so much fun, I also like halloween i remember going to my 2nd trick or treating and it was fun but i don't go trick or treating anymore because of how tall i am.

"You still made me feel like a jerk" lmaooooo sorryy

Yall got some weird thoughts

you aint seen nothing yet

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[RagingSkull]

How tall are you?

idk tbh

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