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Oddly, this was inspired by the song: One Grain of Sand by Ron Pope. (It’s a lovely song)
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One of the worst things to experience with love is a one-sided love. Unfortunately, I’ve gotten myself into exactly that position. No matter how hard I try to shrug off this pain, it just doesn’t go away. I can’t even say anything to him, he’s not mine and I’m not his. I’m alone to suffer in what I’ve gotten myself into.
For me, I was stupid enough to like someone after they had gotten out of a relationship. I wasn’t looking to get with them so soon, but after some time I was bound to consider it. I didn’t see what was going to happen next though.
I was always there for him as a friend. He tried his best for me too. It was always little problems or rants that I didn’t mind listening to. One problem caught me off guard though. It was a problem about the girl from before. At the time I didn’t think much of it. I did as I always did, I listened and tried my best to give him a solution.
The problems about her kept coming. I still didn’t mind then, I kept doing my job as his friend. One day, some time later, I worked up the courage to tell him how I felt. However, during one of his rants, all my courage dropped along with my heart. He admitted there were still feelings for her.
Since he didn’t know my feelings towards him, I forced myself to try and help as normal.
That is the absolute worst part of this. I was forced to hide behind my words to avoid showing my pain. Until the very end, I hid my pain from him and helped him. He still has no clue about everything. Eventually these feelings will run out. It’s like a pitcher of water being poured into a glass with a hole. Eventually, both things will be empty. It’s just a matter of time before that happens to me, where I become empty from constantly pouring myself into him with nothing in return. Maybe if he reads this he will realize, even then though there’s only so much that can happen. I’m such a love loser, I wonder if there is any hope of having anything in return.
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One of the worst things to experience with love is a one-sided love. Unfortunately, I’ve gotten myself into exactly that position. No matter how hard I try to shrug off this pain, it just doesn’t go away. I can’t even say anything to him, he’s not mine and I’m not his. I’m alone to suffer in what I’ve gotten myself into.
For me, I was stupid enough to like someone after they had gotten out of a relationship. I wasn’t looking to get with them so soon, but after some time I was bound to consider it. I didn’t see what was going to happen next though.
I was always there for him as a friend. He tried his best for me too. It was always little problems or rants that I didn’t mind listening to. One problem caught me off guard though. It was a problem about the girl from before. At the time I didn’t think much of it. I did as I always did, I listened and tried my best to give him a solution.
The problems about her kept coming. I still didn’t mind then, I kept doing my job as his friend. One day, some time later, I worked up the courage to tell him how I felt. However, during one of his rants, all my courage dropped along with my heart. He admitted there were still feelings for her.
Since he didn’t know my feelings towards him, I forced myself to try and help as normal.
That is the absolute worst part of this. I was forced to hide behind my words to avoid showing my pain. Until the very end, I hid my pain from him and helped him. He still has no clue about everything. Eventually these feelings will run out. It’s like a pitcher of water being poured into a glass with a hole. Eventually, both things will be empty. It’s just a matter of time before that happens to me, where I become empty from constantly pouring myself into him with nothing in return. Maybe if he reads this he will realize, even then though there’s only so much that can happen. I’m such a love loser, I wonder if there is any hope of having anything in return.