I joined the server on February 12, 2016 at 5:30 PM or somewhere around there. I know this because Flowing and vertx are apparently stalkers and keep track of when exactly people join. My first account on the forums was registered only 10 days after - on February 22, 2016. For really no reason, except that a friend I'd made told me that I should sign up. I was the 1112th member on the forums, by the way. (
I love bragging 
jk but it makes me feel like the things I've done are actually important which makes me feel happy)
I'd only gotten Minecraft recently (yeah, I was late, I know. Don't judge, ok. I was only 9 and a half at the time ;-; ), and after messing around on singleplayer worlds and watching youtube videos, I finally got the hang of the controls. (Although I will admit I'm still a bit noobish at using the side buttons xD) I soon got bored of being forever alone, so I looked on a server list.
After a while of playing on random servers and not really liking them, I looked on the server list again and found BrokenLens. The only reason I decided to join was because the name seemed interesting (and it still is) lol. Anyway, if I remember correctly, the first minigame I played was OITC, which is how I grew attached to it.
As for why I stayed... In servers, at first, it was because this place was fun, relaxing, and it was a great way for me to socialise, since I don't really like talking irl. But then, in around I dunno, November or something the PVP games started becoming toxic. So I quit those. I started playing Non-PVP, and it was fun. But soon... Those got boring too. Now I just play to get those small achievements, like hitting level 200, 300, etc. and getting 200, 300, etc. wins in certain minigames.
On the forums, I stayed because at first, the community was so warm, welcoming, and just plain awesome. The people were a joy to talk to, and made me laugh my ♥♥♥ off so many times. But as the community grew, I grew too. I got into more arguments with more people. Soon I was just another reason this community became toxic. I do have a heart by the way, it's just I don't know how to use it. Now I'm just here to talk when I bored, maybe get a few laughs out of it. Sometimes share a few stories or questiosn, why not.
But really, I wish I could be able to drop everything and just... go. Leave this place. It's become like a definition of Hell. Yeah, sure, there are those few angels every here and there, but they always leave - before me. Like they just came to check if I was okay, if Satan's torture wasn't doing anything truly harming, then up and left. But it does hurt. And I want to go. My mind is made up - but my soul refuses.
