iucjeil
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ik no one cares but I just want this out once and for all. sorry if its not good but its really hard for me.
TRUST ISSUES
Maybe some know I have trust issues but no one here knows why.
In 4th grade I had this best friend, we had fun, We were popular, we played with the guys in the class mostly. under the summer we were best friends too and played and so. one day we were gonna play at my house, so we biked home to me and she gave me this "candy" witch was big, she lied to me how to eat it. so I chocked, this was when we were biking, luckly we were near my house, I couldnt breath so my mother runned to me and did the you know when you chock and that, she almost killed me and she knew about my problems. I Trusted this girl.
when thw summer ended and we were back to school. she stabed me in the back (not litarlly) but she became best friends with this other girl and she told everyone in my class about my secrets. I dont know what I did to her. she continued till 9th grade witch I changed school then. I told her everything. everyone hated me and called me this things and then in 6th grade the teachers told them about my issues and it just got worse.
So im sorry if I have bad trust issues.
LITTLE ME
so a little a bit of when I were little, my mother always said I were happy and so. I have always had this sensetivity.
MY DEPRESSION
so alot know my depression, alot of you know some of the reasons but not many know the basics.
First time I got depression were when I was 6 years old, bc I didnt get the help, my mom called doctors but always got the answer NO. so around 8 my depression came to anger, I punched my parents and so. until i got 11 when I got control of the anger. I still had anger in me but I controled it, then when i were 12 it got to sadness, still has it tho. 1 year ago they are willing to help, they just started, one year later. me and my mother grew closer. She told me I got all of her bad sides, she told me when i was 4-5 years old my mother was really bad, she had depression, she said that every night she beged god to take her life. One day she was so bad that an ambulance came, I still remember it, me andmy bigger sister sitting in the window, scared when our grandma came runing. our father hugged us. still makes me cry when i think about it.
HAPPIER ME
Maybe you havent seen my happy side but I had one. Me and my cousin always played we were famous peope and rich, It was fun. Me and my family traveled alot when I were little, not because we are rich or something just that at the time my mother worked at travel resepcion or something like that. me and my sisters had so fun, played, were happy, I remember there was a girl there who adored me. last time we traveled we were in America in florida, I loved it there but no offense to those who lived there but it wasnt a place for me, it was to warm (sensetivity) but it was really beutiful. every year one week before christmas me, my family and my cousins baked a swedish classic called "lussebulle" or english saffron bun, sorry for the translate. we have fun and listening to swedish classic christmas songs.
Well it wasnt so much but yh, if you dont "believe" in these "stories/memories" then dont, its true. its your problem not mine.
welll... ummm yh. and u dont have to read this bc its not interessting, if you read all of this then wow what a boring life you have, reading this boring stuff.
TRUST ISSUES
Maybe some know I have trust issues but no one here knows why.
In 4th grade I had this best friend, we had fun, We were popular, we played with the guys in the class mostly. under the summer we were best friends too and played and so. one day we were gonna play at my house, so we biked home to me and she gave me this "candy" witch was big, she lied to me how to eat it. so I chocked, this was when we were biking, luckly we were near my house, I couldnt breath so my mother runned to me and did the you know when you chock and that, she almost killed me and she knew about my problems. I Trusted this girl.
when thw summer ended and we were back to school. she stabed me in the back (not litarlly) but she became best friends with this other girl and she told everyone in my class about my secrets. I dont know what I did to her. she continued till 9th grade witch I changed school then. I told her everything. everyone hated me and called me this things and then in 6th grade the teachers told them about my issues and it just got worse.
So im sorry if I have bad trust issues.
LITTLE ME
so a little a bit of when I were little, my mother always said I were happy and so. I have always had this sensetivity.
MY DEPRESSION
so alot know my depression, alot of you know some of the reasons but not many know the basics.
First time I got depression were when I was 6 years old, bc I didnt get the help, my mom called doctors but always got the answer NO. so around 8 my depression came to anger, I punched my parents and so. until i got 11 when I got control of the anger. I still had anger in me but I controled it, then when i were 12 it got to sadness, still has it tho. 1 year ago they are willing to help, they just started, one year later. me and my mother grew closer. She told me I got all of her bad sides, she told me when i was 4-5 years old my mother was really bad, she had depression, she said that every night she beged god to take her life. One day she was so bad that an ambulance came, I still remember it, me andmy bigger sister sitting in the window, scared when our grandma came runing. our father hugged us. still makes me cry when i think about it.
HAPPIER ME
Maybe you havent seen my happy side but I had one. Me and my cousin always played we were famous peope and rich, It was fun. Me and my family traveled alot when I were little, not because we are rich or something just that at the time my mother worked at travel resepcion or something like that. me and my sisters had so fun, played, were happy, I remember there was a girl there who adored me. last time we traveled we were in America in florida, I loved it there but no offense to those who lived there but it wasnt a place for me, it was to warm (sensetivity) but it was really beutiful. every year one week before christmas me, my family and my cousins baked a swedish classic called "lussebulle" or english saffron bun, sorry for the translate. we have fun and listening to swedish classic christmas songs.
Well it wasnt so much but yh, if you dont "believe" in these "stories/memories" then dont, its true. its your problem not mine.
welll... ummm yh. and u dont have to read this bc its not interessting, if you read all of this then wow what a boring life you have, reading this boring stuff.
