life- its ok

[iucjeil]

ITS OK

My whole life I felt unwanted, by my family, by my friends and by all the people around me!

Its hard to be trapped inside your head!

’I understand’ they say but no you don’t!
I dont care anymore.
I dont feel anymore.
I dont live anymore.
I dont breath anymore.

im broken! Im like an old toy everyone is tired of playing with. forgotten. Im not a toy but they think I am.

’it will be better’ they say, but it wont.
I have hundred with knifes in my back from people that have played with me.

Im scared. Im unwanted. Im played. Im trapped. Im dying.

Still they say ’its ok’
I give them a smile and says ’no its not’ They didnt listen to my words, they just saw my smile that made them think im ok.
but im not.

~Written by iucjeil

 

[FreeCrowns]

Positive Mind. Positive Vibes. Positive Life.

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[deleted_user_19610]

You know, writing this kind of thing does not help your mental state, in fact your just making yourself feel worse.
You need to put yourself in a positive space instead of mourning all your losses

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[GLXC_AUS]

ITS OK

My whole life I felt unwanted, by my family, by my friends and by all the people around me!

Its hard to be trapped inside your head!

’I understand’ they say but no you don’t!
I dont care anymore.
I dont feel anymore.
I dont live anymore.
I dont breath anymore.

im broken! Im like an old toy everyone is tired of playing with. forgotten. Im not a toy but they think I am.

’it will be better’ they say, but it wont.
I have hundred with knifes in my back from people that have played with me.

Im scared. Im unwanted. Im played. Im trapped. Im dying.

Still they say ’its ok’
I give them a smile and says ’no its not’ They didnt listen to my words, they just saw my smile that made them think im ok.
but im not.

~Written by iucjeil

You know, writing this kind of thing does not help your mental state, in fact your just making yourself feel worse.
You need to put yourself in a positive space instead of mourning all your losses

Like what Erin said.
We don't have a memory part of our brain without a reason iucjeil.
Take a trip to memory lane and remember all the times in which you felt at your most happiesness.

You know me pretty well Erin, I'm not the best example, but I hope to give this good news.

Spoiler: Open this iucjeil

There's Someone who truely cares for you individually @iucjeil .

He came for the Broken, the unwanted, the sick, and for the forgotten.
Regardless of where you're from, who you are,and what state you are in, He loves you.

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[gaemer]

Iuc.. you came back!

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[Minty]

We all have bad times in life, but just try to remember all the good things and all the people who really do care about you and all those happy moments, even though you don’t know me, I completely understand and I do care about you and I get that your not ok but you need to know that there really are people in the world who do care about you and are happy to have you in their life, try focusing on them because they do care about you a lot and it would make a HUGE difference if you weren’t in their life anymore. No one can be completely numb, just push those hurt feelings away and those negatives thoughts because you are loved and cared for and those thoughts and feelings don’t matter.

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[gaemer]

Dont let those little voices become a major Problem for you.. I believe you can pass through it.. Believe me.. It'll happen

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[100imsilverr]

im unloved but that's ok

i only see positivity no matter who stands by my side

yea my life has crumbled this year
but
im still standing

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[iucjeil]

We all have bad times in life, but just try to remember all the good things and all the people who really do care about you and all those happy moments, even though you don’t know me, I completely understand and I do care about you and I get that your not ok but you need to know that there really are people in the world who do care about you and are happy to have you in their life, try focusing on them because they do care about you a lot and it would make a HUGE difference if you weren’t in their life anymore. No one can be completely numb, just push those hurt feelings away and those negatives thoughts because you are loved and cared for and those thoughts and feelings don’t matter.

ik, thank u!!

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[iucjeil]

Like what Erin said.
We don't have a memory part of our brain without a reason iucjeil.
Take a trip to memory lane and remember all the times in which you felt at your most happiesness.

You know me pretty well Erin, I'm not the best example, but I hope to give this good news.

Spoiler: Open this iucjeil

There's Someone who truely cares for you individually @iucjeil .

He came for the Broken, the unwanted, the sick, and for the forgotten.
Regardless of where you're from, who you are,and what state you are in, He loves you.

I will!! I look too much at the bad times then the good times, thats why No one really misses me, I have to be happy what I have, I have good friends, good memories!!

btw I dont really believe in jesus, but I respect ppl believe in him!!

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