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ItzThatVixen

ItzThatVixen

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Hello, person that is reading this. I'm going to be completely honest with you, and tell you the reason why I've been inactive and is now leaving. No more hiding my feelings, or faking them.

Let's start from the beginning. Ever since I discovered this server, I have loved it very much. It has taken up such a massive amount of time in my life that it is unimaginable, mostly because I have been utterly spellbound with the fact that some people on the Internet find me funny, and want to be my friends. The community was and a part of it still is, remarkable. Remarkable in how quickly you can get sucked up into a friendship group and feel at home in this server. I got in deep so quickly, and I rather think that it scared me. Who knows who you're talking to on the Internet? But I still went a long with it. I didn't care, because I loved the attention. Craved it in fact, so much to the point that every second of the day not spent playing on the server, I was most certainly thinking about it.
But then I realised that it was too much. And I quit. For a good few months actually, and I was extremely happy. I had basically broken away from an addiction. But then the cravings started, and I gave in to that hunger for attention. I came back. Then, everything started to go downhill. I felt like nobody respected me anymore, but I still hung on to the thought that "maybe they'll like me like they used to again?" But they didn't.
The server started to move on. New players joined, old ones left. And so the cycle goes. All of us older ones who are still hanging on don't want to admit it but, we don't want any of the new players. We want it to be like how it was. I need to stop dreaming that it will go back to those days, because it never will. I need to admit that.
Lately my anxiety has popped back up, and I have had various illnesses, so I haven't logged onto BrokenLens in a while. Also that the servers weren't on the latest update, so that had stopped me from playing. And I've realised that.. I don't miss playing on here anymore. It's just seemed like a dragging responsibility for me that I just don't want to do.
So that's why I'm quitting. Not because I hate you all, but because I really can't carry on doing this. And I'm sorry, few people that care about me anymore. I really am. But I have to do something for me, no matter how much I love you as friends. I just can't do it.
I will come back online sometimes, but will never do anything on here. I'll just be a ghost, browsing through the forums or looking at my messages so if you ever really need me, I'll be here.

Thank you, BrokenLens. For everything. And just know that you'll always be my favourite server, and you have brought me so much happiness.

 
Awww, Vixen :(
I can't believe you're leaving. I'm going to actually cry :'(
You're such a special part of this community. You're my TurdBlossom <3
I'll never forget you, Vix. You're an amazing friend, you always care for others, and I love your sense of humour x'D
You always make me smile and laugh. :')
I'm going to miss you incredibly. No one will ever take your place.
I respect your decision, and I hope you feel better with your illness. :)
I love you Vix. ( As A friend :3 )

Goodbye Vix, I wish you luck in life. :') :)
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Maybe you feel like that about the new come, old go cycle, but I don't. Sure, I miss my old friends who've left, but they had to leave. Life is just like that. After all, you can't just stay here forever.

Thank you for all the times we've spent together, and all the times you made my laugh. Maybe we're not close friends, but I know you enough to call you one of my friends.

I'll respect your decision to leave, and I'll miss you. You will stay in my heart forever, I'll never forget you.

Goodbye, Vix.
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Enderphant said:
:cry: :'(Vix, sorry I couldn't have seen this sooner...I was wondering where you went. Now I understand, remember all the people who loved you as a friend. Please remember me we have so many good memories together. I hope you decide to come back, please if your reading this
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Please don't reply to old threads. But you're new... Thank you! :)
~Thread Lock @Plushtrap_123 @Laura_Aria @Ray_Palmer_Atom
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ItzThatVixen said:
Hello, person that is reading this. I'm going to be completely honest with you, and tell you the reason why I've been inactive and is now leaving. No more hiding my feelings, or faking them.

Let's start from the beginning. Ever since I discovered this server, I have loved it very much. It has taken up such a massive amount of time in my life that it is unimaginable, mostly because I have been utterly spellbound with the fact that some people on the Internet find me funny, and want to be my friends. The community was and a part of it still is, remarkable. Remarkable in how quickly you can get sucked up into a friendship group and feel at home in this server. I got in deep so quickly, and I rather think that it scared me. Who knows who you're talking to on the Internet? But I still went a long with it. I didn't care, because I loved the attention. Craved it in fact, so much to the point that every second of the day not spent playing on the server, I was most certainly thinking about it.
But then I realised that it was too much. And I quit. For a good few months actually, and I was extremely happy. I had basically broken away from an addiction. But then the cravings started, and I gave in to that hunger for attention. I came back. Then, everything started to go downhill. I felt like nobody respected me anymore, but I still hung on to the thought that "maybe they'll like me like they used to again?" But they didn't.
The server started to move on. New players joined, old ones left. And so the cycle goes. All of us older ones who are still hanging on don't want to admit it but, we don't want any of the new players. We want it to be like how it was. I need to stop dreaming that it will go back to those days, because it never will. I need to admit that.
Lately my anxiety has popped back up, and I have had various illnesses, so I haven't logged onto BrokenLens in a while. Also that the servers weren't on the latest update, so that had stopped me from playing. And I've realised that.. I don't miss playing on here anymore. It's just seemed like a dragging responsibility for me that I just don't want to do.
So that's why I'm quitting. Not because I hate you all, but because I really can't carry on doing this. And I'm sorry, few people that care about me anymore. I really am. But I have to do something for me, no matter how much I love you as friends. I just can't do it.
I will come back online sometimes, but will never do anything on here. I'll just be a ghost, browsing through the forums or looking at my messages so if you ever really need me, I'll be here.

Thank you, BrokenLens. For everything. And just know that you'll always be my favourite server, and you have brought me so much happiness.

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;-; Me too I'll be honest I miss the old days where we could have fun. I lost the fun of playings on servers too but I still force my self to go o it to ban some hackers since maybe I like less playing but we have players who love playing.. What happen is that new players are indivually and they just play no one talk ♥♥♥♥♥ing and we can gocfor hours. But still I love forums since you do have fun with your friend who still here anyway! and somepeople (new) join us. Like razzle! She's one whi entered our friendship.but I thin you should leave servers but not forums. :/
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Aypifox said:
;-; Me too I'll be honest I miss the old days where we could have fun. I lost the fun of playings on servers too but I still force my self to go o it to ban some hackers since maybe I like less playing but we have players who love playing.. What happen is that new players are indivually and they just play no one talk ♥♥♥♥♥ing and we can gocfor hours. But still I love forums since you do have fun with your friend who still here anyway! and somepeople (new) join us. Like razzle! She's one whi entered our friendship.but I thin you should leave servers but not forums. :/
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Ya I Rember The Old Days (even though not that many people Remeber me)
And Also I Think Those Old Days Had FAKE itzRebby But Even Though She Was Fake, She Was Fun To Play With And If I Said Hi She Would Say Sup Back. :)
And Man I Miss The Old Days Too I Can't Blame Ya..
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Aypifox said:
;-; Me too I'll be honest I miss the old days where we could have fun. I lost the fun of playings on servers too but I still force my self to go o it to ban some hackers since maybe I like less playing but we have players who love playing.. What happen is that new players are indivually and they just play no one talk ♥♥♥♥♥ing and we can gocfor hours. But still I love forums since you do have fun with your friend who still here anyway! and somepeople (new) join us. Like razzle! She's one whi entered our friendship.but I thin you should leave servers but not forums. :/
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I remember at the start of the year when I played with you and Bip on the old old server spawn.
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I just now saw this, and wasn't in time to say goodbye. I know we haven't had many conversations, but you were one of the first people that I've encountered on the forums. You may not remember me, and even though we've had one or two conversations, it's still sad to see you go. But, if it benefits you, in even the slightest way, it makes me feel better about you leaving, and I'm sure it makes others feel better about it, as well. You might not ever read this, but I still wish you the best to overcome your illnesses and anxiety. I wish we talked more. You seem like a lovely person. I'll be looking forward to your return, if you will.
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Well I just come in here back and now I saw this ... This look like a goodbye sooooo bye Vix its nice to know ya
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LinkerHacker said:
Well I just come in here back and now I saw this ... This look like a goodbye sooooo bye Vix its nice to know ya
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She left like a month ago ;-; and don't reply to old threads link xD
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Elania said:
I know that ._. I didn't say to close this thread, I was just saying she left a month ago. I miss vix ;-;
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No you were telling him not to reply to old threads, but people should be able to say goodbye to their friends at anytime.
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Missed...
Anyways, i always can't let myself to leave, but i might finally do it one day. Not because i want. I need to.
The fact, that people living better when i'm not here, makes me feel bad, and i wish everyone to be the happiest.
I need to do one thing, that's why he choosed me. I'm not telling why, when and how, just it need time.
I'm saying that, because may you have something related that you don't want to tell.
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