HermioneJG
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- Apr 12, 2017
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Hey again to everyone who knew me. Hi to everyone who doesn’t. That’s... kinda it. I might not be back on the server but I’m gonna try to stay on the forums this time. I know it’s been a while.
I missed this place <3
Edit, because I realised that’s not it:
It has been a year and a half since I was here.
I was active for a year and three months.
I’m definitely a different person than I was when I left or even when I first joined. And that’s... scary. One thing that’s still the same is the fact that I’m the kind of person who doesn’t like to acknowledge that time is passing and things are changing, and it’s why I had trouble coming back.
I did try to write a goodbye, you know, but I couldn’t, because it meant acknowledging that something was changing. So I ghosted. And then I was scared to come back because it meant facing the fact that I disappeared on you guys, and I’m sorry if anyone thought I was dead (*looks at Eric with his ‘you pick the prettiest flower’ thing *).
It genuinely physically hurts me to be here again, in a... good(?) way. Like, it’s not a good feeling, and I want it to stop, but it comes from a good place. It’s the nostalgia. And I guess at this point I could as well stay, right, since it’s going to hurt just as bad to leave again
Stuff is still changing. I’m in upper sixth, and next year I’m going to be moving to Canada for university. I’m not even really happy about what I’ll be doing, but... that’s another can of worms I don’t want to open right now. This post is already making me cry and that particular tangent will only make it worse.
At least some stuff is still the same. A lot of people I remember are still active, which is another thing I was really scared of. I was scared of coming back to find either an abandoned forum, or one populated entirely by strangers. It sucks that Benjy’s deleted his profile, and it seems like Ang hasn’t been on in a while, but I can’t see her profile
She was the first person to ever talk to me here and I think my closest friend in the community. We’re birthday twins.
You wanna know what brought me back? In a way it was Benjy. I’ve been RPing recently and in one of my characters backstories, I was going to have one of their friends be an aspiring YouTuber. And it just made me think of Benjy and after a few days of having it nag on my mind that’s what brought me here. It wasn’t intended as a Christmas thing but I guess that’s some good timing too. And it’s a time of change... It’s my last Christmas before I move away. It’s the end of a decade.
I’m rambling. But merry Christmas to everyone, or happy Hanukkah - y’know what, happy holiday of your choice - and hopefully I’ll stick around this time, although you likely won’t run into me on the server.
Hey again to everyone who knew me. Hi to everyone who doesn’t. That’s... kinda it. I might not be back on the server but I’m gonna try to stay on the forums this time. I know it’s been a while.
I missed this place <3
Edit, because I realised that’s not it:
It has been a year and a half since I was here.
I was active for a year and three months.
I’m definitely a different person than I was when I left or even when I first joined. And that’s... scary. One thing that’s still the same is the fact that I’m the kind of person who doesn’t like to acknowledge that time is passing and things are changing, and it’s why I had trouble coming back.
I did try to write a goodbye, you know, but I couldn’t, because it meant acknowledging that something was changing. So I ghosted. And then I was scared to come back because it meant facing the fact that I disappeared on you guys, and I’m sorry if anyone thought I was dead (*looks at Eric with his ‘you pick the prettiest flower’ thing *).
It genuinely physically hurts me to be here again, in a... good(?) way. Like, it’s not a good feeling, and I want it to stop, but it comes from a good place. It’s the nostalgia. And I guess at this point I could as well stay, right, since it’s going to hurt just as bad to leave again
Stuff is still changing. I’m in upper sixth, and next year I’m going to be moving to Canada for university. I’m not even really happy about what I’ll be doing, but... that’s another can of worms I don’t want to open right now. This post is already making me cry and that particular tangent will only make it worse.
At least some stuff is still the same. A lot of people I remember are still active, which is another thing I was really scared of. I was scared of coming back to find either an abandoned forum, or one populated entirely by strangers. It sucks that Benjy’s deleted his profile, and it seems like Ang hasn’t been on in a while, but I can’t see her profile
She was the first person to ever talk to me here and I think my closest friend in the community. We’re birthday twins.You wanna know what brought me back? In a way it was Benjy. I’ve been RPing recently and in one of my characters backstories, I was going to have one of their friends be an aspiring YouTuber. And it just made me think of Benjy and after a few days of having it nag on my mind that’s what brought me here. It wasn’t intended as a Christmas thing but I guess that’s some good timing too. And it’s a time of change... It’s my last Christmas before I move away. It’s the end of a decade.
I’m rambling. But merry Christmas to everyone, or happy Hanukkah - y’know what, happy holiday of your choice - and hopefully I’ll stick around this time, although you likely won’t run into me on the server.
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