MorningWqffle
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OKAAAAAAAAY hoi there person, you have now clicked this thread to hear me contemplate on life, therefore you will now will be required to advise me on stuff.
So, I've been really self-cautious of myself lately. I've been worrying about superfluous stuff and unnecessary stuff. This is gonna be a really long thread so if you take the time to read this, thaaaank youuuu! Lol this is weird since I'm putting everything on a Minecraft forum.
So I'm technically "smart" to many people. I've participated in U.I.L. Competitions ever since I had access to enter it. Ive won 1st place on Oral Reading and Creative Writing in 4th grade. In 5th grade I won first on Oral Reading again, and got placed as the Top 5 (it's the 5 most intelligent people in school). In 6th grade I got placed on a list again. So everything is good ya know. Fast forward a couple times to the present. I'm worried that I wouldn't be good enough, smart enough, etc. For example, what if I won't be able to go to college because of how expensive it is? Many people are in debt because of student loans and other similar school related stuff. And what if I don't become successful? It's weird how whenever we are kids, we dream of how successful and how amazing it is. 10 years ago you might've wanted to be a singer, artist, dancer, celebrity etc. Now when you are older, you are now limited on what career you can choose. And those career options depend on what area you are intelligent you are. You start worrying if you will ever be WEALTHY! You worry if you will end up working for some crappy company like McDonalds, lol. I'm also self-cautious on how I look a lot. Many people say I look cute and petite, but I don't agree. I'm Asian and go to an American school. I quietly envy those other white people that are clear white and gold blonde hair, blue eyes and all. I'm a bit darker, tan maybe idk. Dark brown hair. Wears oversized sweaters and such. I envy many people because my mind just works like that. I view everyone as greater than what I am. I can't find anything I'm passionate about anymore. I play violin actually, and I used to be obsessed with it. I was passionate and got placed first chair violinist. I started lacking interest in it anymore. I also enjoy art and drawing, aesthetic stuff. I now lack passion in that too. I sit in bed a lot, think about life instead of doing something with it. And now I need help. Thank you for reading this, I know it's super long and this is on a freaking Minecraft Forums website, but yea, thanks.
So, I've been really self-cautious of myself lately. I've been worrying about superfluous stuff and unnecessary stuff. This is gonna be a really long thread so if you take the time to read this, thaaaank youuuu! Lol this is weird since I'm putting everything on a Minecraft forum.
So I'm technically "smart" to many people. I've participated in U.I.L. Competitions ever since I had access to enter it. Ive won 1st place on Oral Reading and Creative Writing in 4th grade. In 5th grade I won first on Oral Reading again, and got placed as the Top 5 (it's the 5 most intelligent people in school). In 6th grade I got placed on a list again. So everything is good ya know. Fast forward a couple times to the present. I'm worried that I wouldn't be good enough, smart enough, etc. For example, what if I won't be able to go to college because of how expensive it is? Many people are in debt because of student loans and other similar school related stuff. And what if I don't become successful? It's weird how whenever we are kids, we dream of how successful and how amazing it is. 10 years ago you might've wanted to be a singer, artist, dancer, celebrity etc. Now when you are older, you are now limited on what career you can choose. And those career options depend on what area you are intelligent you are. You start worrying if you will ever be WEALTHY! You worry if you will end up working for some crappy company like McDonalds, lol. I'm also self-cautious on how I look a lot. Many people say I look cute and petite, but I don't agree. I'm Asian and go to an American school. I quietly envy those other white people that are clear white and gold blonde hair, blue eyes and all. I'm a bit darker, tan maybe idk. Dark brown hair. Wears oversized sweaters and such. I envy many people because my mind just works like that. I view everyone as greater than what I am. I can't find anything I'm passionate about anymore. I play violin actually, and I used to be obsessed with it. I was passionate and got placed first chair violinist. I started lacking interest in it anymore. I also enjoy art and drawing, aesthetic stuff. I now lack passion in that too. I sit in bed a lot, think about life instead of doing something with it. And now I need help. Thank you for reading this, I know it's super long and this is on a freaking Minecraft Forums website, but yea, thanks.
