Avicii
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oh and I know it seems young - but something about it just resonated with me when my mother was talking about gay men and I really wanted to ask what was the girl equivalent called but I was too scared so I later googled iteveryone is posting multiple facts so I guess my another fun fact is that I knew I was a lesbian ever since I was around 7, but since I even back then knew that nobody would approve I shoved that s♥♥♥ back down for a while
I was too scared bc she told that "being gay is bad" and those words seem to never leave me
and I just somehow felt that if fit and that's how I say I knew - though because I've heard it in a bad context so I really didn't want to be so i shoved everything back down for years
I had more realisations like that where I'd just think to myself I may be gay but hey ho internalized homophobia made me shove s♥♥♥ back down up to the point where I reached a breaking point and was so sick of performing heterosexuality to me and others and said ♥♥♥♥ it
there was many signs throughout the years that have proven it but that's a whole another essay
I give up before I even get close to solve it