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a select few of you may of wondered where i've been for the past month (doubtful)
the thing is, i've distanced myself from servers, and focused more on myself, and schoolwork.
i feel like the server has made me a worse person, and kinda.. i guess, it's controlled me,
so in a way, i was addicted and it changed me. now, i'm not saying brokenlens or any of the community is at fault, it's just in my experience, this server has given me a bad experience and people come and people go, that's how life works sadly.
and, i ended up pushing people away, so i'm sorry to them, i don't see myself as a good friend, or a friend at that. and i don't see a point in staying here anymore, people are better off without me. so, thank you to those who stuck by me through everything, and i'm sorry for everything, and how i hid my emotions, i only did that so you wouldn't worry about me since there are people worse off then me, so they should be worried about instead.
the goals that i set myself on the server was to make some true friends (which is hard to come across), and reach level 1000, and i accomplished the second one.

this past year has had its up's and downs.
my aunt ended up stealing from my parents and pushed everyone away from her,
she even ended up putting down her two dogs and cats, which i found disgusting.
a lot of people that i cared about passed, and i could do nothing about it.
my parents turned to drugs and alcohol, meaning i had to look after myself in a way.
i've missed school quite a bit, due to personal reasons---
my mental issues have sent me into a spiral of nothingness,

i don't want you to "feel bad" about me, that's the last thing i'd want,
i'm more of a lost cause at this point.

i'm guessing some of you just skipped most of this, which is understandable.
well, i guess this is goodbye? and a sorry to anyone and everyone for existing.
thanks again, this server made me realise quite a few things about myself,
and allowed me to meet friends i never thought i could have.

so thank you.


could've turned my goodbye letter into an essay,
but can't be bothered-
and, i might do a giveaway for my account, who knows.

sayonara, brokenlens,
Ash/tsh
 
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idk who you are but i respect your decision and hope you do well in life
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Bye ;-;
Even though I don’t really know you that well but you seem really nice
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Noo! I wish I could’ve gotten to know you better. I wish you the best of luck in life.
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Bye and best wishes for your future!
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wtf is this, like 50% of ppl in my country are going in Germany bcuz u get more money there then here
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tsh said:
a select few of you may of wondered where i've been for the past month (doubtful)
the thing is, i've distanced myself from servers, and focused more on myself, and schoolwork.
i feel like the server has made me a worse person, and kinda.. i guess, it's controlled me,
so in a way, i was addicted and it changed me. now, i'm not saying brokenlens or any of the community is at fault, it's just in my experience, this server has given me a bad experience and people come and people go, that's how life works sadly.
and, i ended up pushing people away, so i'm sorry to them, i don't see myself as a good friend, or a friend at that. and i don't see a point in staying here anymore, people are better off without me. so, thank you to those who stuck by me through everything, and i'm sorry for everything, and how i hid my emotions, i only did that so you wouldn't worry about me since there are people worse off then me, so they should be worried about instead.
the goals that i set myself on the server was to make some true friends (which is hard to come across), and reach level 1000, and i accomplished the second one.

this past year has had its up's and downs.
my aunt ended up stealing from my parents and pushed everyone away from her,
she even ended up putting down her two dogs and cats, which i found disgusting.
a lot of people that i cared about passed, and i could do nothing about it.
my parents turned to drugs and alcohol, meaning i had to look after myself in a way.
i've missed school quite a bit, due to personal reasons---
my mental issues have sent me into a spiral of nothingness,

i don't want you to "feel bad" about me, that's the last thing i'd want,
i'm more of a lost cause at this point.

i'm guessing some of you just skipped most of this, which is understandable.
well, i guess this is goodbye? and a sorry to anyone and everyone for existing.
thanks again, this server made me realise quite a few things about myself,
and allowed me to meet friends i never thought i could have.

so thank you.


could've turned my goodbye letter into an essay,
but can't be bothered-
and, i might do a giveaway for my account, who knows.

sayonara, brokenlens,
Ash/tsh
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Sweetie, sweetie, I don’t know you that well but you seem like such a considerate and caring person. Everyone makes mistakes and has flaws that make them think they’re a horrible person and you are very brave to admit them. You’re very admirable for taking responsibility for your actions but you DO NOT have to hide who you are for other people and you are allowed to be sad and hurt, even if other people may not like it. And don’t give me the ‘there are people who are worse off’, you are going through your own things too and your problems are equally important - they may be different but that doesn’t mean they matter any less.

I’m not saying all this out of pity, okay? I’m saying all this because it is one of the worst feelings in the world - to blame yourself for everything with a little voice saying what a horrible person you are. As sweet as it is that you care about your parents that much, it is NOT your responsibility to keep them happy - that’s theirs. Your parents and aunt are the only ones who truly understand what they’ve each been through so they’re the only ones with the power to truly heal themselves. They may need help, of course, but that should never become a burden and expectation for you.

Screw the pity bit, I am so so sorry that you’re going through this and feeling my heart ache for you is something I choose willingly - it isn’t a burden. I’m happy that BrokenLens was able to make you smile, I truly am. Thank you so much for being here.

I hope I managed to reach you, even just a little. Just know that we’ll ALWAYS be here for you, okay? And trust me when I say this, I know you’re a blessing to your family and a gift to this world ♡
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