2018.

[KendraHawk]

Hello, everybody reading this thread. I haven't made one in ages. Most of you might not know who I am, as I'm one of the older members and I'm not that active anymore. But, since it's the end of 2018, I thought I'd talk about this year.
Yes, I know it's only the 30th, but it's my brother's birthday tomorrow so I'm busy with relatives.

2018 has been.. different. It's gone by unbelievably fast, I cannot believe, that in two days, it will be 2019 already.

In December 2017, I actually quit the forums, but like most things, it only lasted for a few months. Ever since I joined these forums, I've been addicted. Sure, BrokenLens isn't what it was before, but it's a part of my life and I'm so grateful to have joined it. I most certainly don't have as many friends as when I first joined, as most have left/gone inactive or we've just grown apart. It's sad, but that's just reality.

One thing that makes this year different, is that it's my first full year without Pixie and Phoenix. I'm pretty sure you all know who they are by now, but if not, click here vvv https://brokenlens.xyz/forums/threads/pixie.50200/

That made this year extremely hard for me. It's something that I never thought I'd have to go through. Yes, I'm still coping, but I'm making it through it and that's all that matters.

During this whole year, I've gotten messages from people, ones I've never spoken to, comforting me and telling me they're sorry for my loss. If you are one of those people, thank you. Even if you're not, thank you anyway.

If any of you are ever having a rough time, just create a conversation with me, I mean it. Just spill out your emotions and I'll be fully there, even if there's nothing I can do to help. Feel free to come write on my profile whenever you feel like it, I'm always open to making new friends.

I've made so many new friends this year, who I'm incredibly grateful for. I've made so many memories, good and bad, I'm so grateful for them. I'm so grateful for all of you in this community who have changed my life for the better., even if we've never talked.

I'm so sad that 2018 is almost over, but excited for 2019, even though I already know some of the challenges that lie ahead of me. 2019 will also mark three years of me being on these forums. Thank you all for everything, I love you.

How was your 2018?

 

[B3N]

This was beautiful. Well done.


My 2018 had its ups and downs. But overall, it was still a great year. <3

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[Builderwither]

I've meet Pixel with your thread , if i judge by the way you're talking of her i think that you're a family member .
Sincere condolences if im right , even if im not btw .
Strangely , seeing that those kinds of things can happen in MC make me realise how much i love this community , cuz' even in MC we're in security nowhere .

You don't know me and i dont know you , but be sure that im here , here for everyone btw :x
How strange is that ?



2018 was a strange year for me too , some friends are gone , new ones come , thats an eternal loop that never stop .
One of my friends lose his son and i was here for helping him , i guess that if i wasnt here , he surely killed himself .
2018 was a year where death was everywhere for me , i hope that 2019 will be better .
I fall in love in 2018 , i guess death wasnt everywhere after all , i've falled in love of someone that i firstly meet on the server , eve if i wasnt researching at all , i was on BL for playing , not for date , i hate e-dating , but i fall in love .
How strange is that ?

its been near a year that im in build team , the 14th January will be my first year in the staff team as builder . . . and i feel like theres something missing , those times im nostalgic , i dont understand . . .
how strange is that ?

I've bought a better PC in 2018 , but sometimes , i want coming back on my old and s♥♥♥ty PC , even if the one i have actually is way better and way more performant , but sometimes i want re-opening the old and s♥♥♥ty PC . . .
How strange is that ?


2018 was a strange year for me , i hope my 2019 will be better and , more importantly , i hope yours will be better than mine .

I wish you tons of happiness , thats all i want for you .

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[Dog_Lover1098]

Once August passed, everything seemed like it was going by really fast for me. 2018 wasn't the greatest year for me but hopefully better things come from 2019. I'm sorry for your loss. I read the thread a while back about what happened. U and her sister are very strong people. I wish the best for u and everyone else in 2019

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[IrishPotatooee]

My 2018 was a mix of ups and downs. I started getting more involved in the Minecraft community, I started volunteering for a Minecraft server (that I won't mention here lol), my YT channel seems to be growing at a good speed and many more small things that made me happy.

However, I'm still struggling with a lot of things most teenagers go through. School is just horrible right now and I'm one of the people that actually enjoy it! I suffer with a lot of social anxiety and I usually get small panic attacks out of no where in completely random situations.

But hopefully next year will be better! It's a new chapter as I'm 18 in July (I'm so old I know ouch).

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[deleted_user_2782]

2018 was probably one of the worst years I've had before. I didn't see my mom for months, my grandma died, I literally could of never been sadder. I hope 2019 will bring joy. ily Kendra you've been so strong. I wish a happy new years for everyone.


Ah but I'm through I'm thriving

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[_Emoty_]

aw, kendra, you’re simply amazing. i wish i could be as kind as you. i never got the privilege of knowing pixie or phoenix, but i know that both of them would be so so proud of you because of the way you have handled things. everything you have done is so beautiful. your messages to pixie are wonderful and i know that pixie appreciates them from heaven. you’re certainly as much of an angel as her. not many people would offer to talk to someone who is in pain. it takes a great person to try to help others when they’re coping with their own losses. you never fail to amaze me <3 keep doing what you’re doing, i truly hope that 2019 is the best year for you

my year was amazing at first, but about halfway through it crashed. it was the best year of my life at the beginning, but the worst after june. i’ve not been doing well ever since the huge crash, but i’m hoping that with the new things that i’m going to begin, 2019 will be great for me. my friends: the people reading this, everyone here really, are simply the most wonderful people. i appreciate them so so much for dealing with me and my constant mood swings and the way i handle things. my anger, my sadness, my everything, they seem to stay. i hope that they stay in 2019, but i more so hope that they’ll have a better year than me. if they don’t wish for me to be apart of their lives anymore, or if they don’t need me anymore, then that’ll be fine. it’s a wish that’ll never come true, but i wish that 2019 is absolutely sensational for everyone that is part of it. especially whoever is reading this <3

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[BananaMuffin]

2018 put me at my lowest, it felt like I was carrying bricks on my shoulders. I was un-motivated (is that a word?) had a lack of energy, and my anxiety was controlling me. To me, everything I did was just adding to the pile of mess I had created, and I knew that nobody but myself could change it. Did that stop me from crying almost every night? No, the worst feeling was afterwards when I would sit in silence with a blank mind, staring at the wall wondering if this was how my life was going to be from now on. Sometimes I would glance at childhood toys or pictures and remember back to simpler times filled with bubbles, daisy chains and In The Night Garden. On a few occasions I would starve myself for the whole day due to lack of self love and dreams to be like the girls in those celebrity magazines. More then once I had vivid daydreams of my "inevitable" suicide, I imagined it would be all dramatic like in all those films.
For me, 2018 was a lesson, that I should never let a picture deceive me, to stop letting people walk all over me, and that these problems are temporary and the light is somewhere within the fog. I don't think it is just I who should remember that, but everyone who is struggling to find themselves through all the mess. This year was rocky and next year might be too, but I swear to god I'm taking my life back. Thank you.

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[The Daywalker]

There's only 1 thing
2 say
3 words
4 you

I hate 2018

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[Sadcasm]

2018 is da saddest year.

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[lucas1901]

Hello, everybody reading this thread. I haven't made one in ages. Most of you might not know who I am, as I'm one of the older members and I'm not that active anymore. But, since it's the end of 2018, I thought I'd talk about this year.
Yes, I know it's only the 30th, but it's my brother's birthday tomorrow so I'm busy with relatives.

2018 has been.. different. It's gone by unbelievably fast, I cannot believe, that in two days, it will be 2019 already.

In December 2017, I actually quit the forums, but like most things, it only lasted for a few months. Ever since I joined these forums, I've been addicted. Sure, BrokenLens isn't what it was before, but it's a part of my life and I'm so grateful to have joined it. I most certainly don't have as many friends as when I first joined, as most have left/gone inactive or we've just grown apart. It's sad, but that's just reality.

One thing that makes this year different, is that it's my first full year without Pixie and Phoenix. I'm pretty sure you all know who they are by now, but if not, click here vvv https://brokenlens.xyz/forums/threads/pixie.50200/

That made this year extremely hard for me. It's something that I never thought I'd have to go through. Yes, I'm still coping, but I'm making it through it and that's all that matters.

During this whole year, I've gotten messages from people, ones I've never spoken to, comforting me and telling me they're sorry for my loss. If you are one of those people, thank you. Even if you're not, thank you anyway.

If any of you are ever having a rough time, just create a conversation with me, I mean it. Just spill out your emotions and I'll be fully there, even if there's nothing I can do to help. Feel free to come write on my profile whenever you feel like it, I'm always open to making new friends.

I've made so many new friends this year, who I'm incredibly grateful for. I've made so many memories, good and bad, I'm so grateful for them. I'm so grateful for all of you in this community who have changed my life for the better., even if we've never talked.

I'm so sad that 2018 is almost over, but excited for 2019, even though I already know some of the challenges that lie ahead of me. 2019 will also mark three years of me being on these forums. Thank you all for everything, I love you.

How was your 2018?

My 2018 was ok
Happy birthday to ur brother!
And happy New Years!

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[KendraHawk]

This was beautiful. Well done.


My 2018 had its ups and downs. But overall, it was still a great year. <3

Thank you, Ben, it means a lot ♡
I'm glad you had a great year, I hope 2019 is nothing but better <3

I've meet Pixel with your thread , if i judge by the way you're talking of her i think that you're a family member .
Sincere condolences if im right , even if im not btw .
Strangely , seeing that those kinds of things can happen in MC make me realise how much i love this community , cuz' even in MC we're in security nowhere .

You don't know me and i dont know you , but be sure that im here , here for everyone btw :x
How strange is that ?



2018 was a strange year for me too , some friends are gone , new ones come , thats an eternal loop that never stop .
One of my friends lose his son and i was here for helping him , i guess that if i wasnt here , he surely killed himself .
2018 was a year where death was everywhere for me , i hope that 2019 will be better .
I fall in love in 2018 , i guess death wasnt everywhere after all , i've falled in love of someone that i firstly meet on the server , eve if i wasnt researching at all , i was on BL for playing , not for date , i hate e-dating , but i fall in love .
How strange is that ?

its been near a year that im in build team , the 14th January will be my first year in the staff team as builder . . . and i feel like theres something missing , those times im nostalgic , i dont understand . . .
how strange is that ?

I've bought a better PC in 2018 , but sometimes , i want coming back on my old and s♥♥♥ty PC , even if the one i have actually is way better and way more performant , but sometimes i want re-opening the old and s♥♥♥ty PC . . .
How strange is that ?


2018 was a strange year for me , i hope my 2019 will be better and , more importantly , i hope yours will be better than mine .

I wish you tons of happiness , thats all i want for you .

I was just her best friend, but thank you so much. I hope 2019 brings much more happiness. ♡

Once August passed, everything seemed like it was going by really fast for me. 2018 wasn't the greatest year for me but hopefully better things come from 2019. I'm sorry for your loss. I read the thread a while back about what happened. U and her sister are very strong people. I wish the best for u and everyone else in 2019

Thank you so much, it truly means a lot. I hope 2019 is a happy year for you <3

My 2018 was a mix of ups and downs. I started getting more involved in the Minecraft community, I started volunteering for a Minecraft server (that I won't mention here lol), my YT channel seems to be growing at a good speed and many more small things that made me happy.

However, I'm still struggling with a lot of things most teenagers go through. School is just horrible right now and I'm one of the people that actually enjoy it! I suffer with a lot of social anxiety and I usually get small panic attacks out of no where in completely random situations.

But hopefully next year will be better! It's a new chapter as I'm 18 in July (I'm so old I know ouch).

What's your Youtube channel? I'll suscribe xx

I'm really sorry about that, I hope it gets better, you deserve it.

Don't worry, this community is for all ages!! My brother is on here and he just turned 18 today, so you're not that old xd

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[KendraHawk]

2018 was probably one of the worst years I've had before. I didn't see my mom for months, my grandma died, I literally could of never been sadder. I hope 2019 will bring joy. ily Kendra you've been so strong. I wish a happy new years for everyone.


Ah but I'm through I'm thriving

I'm sorry for your loss. Thank you so much, it means so much to me xx

Yess, you go girl!! I hope 2019 brings so much more happiness for you ♡

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[KendraHawk]

aw, kendra, you’re simply amazing. i wish i could be as kind as you. i never got the privilege of knowing pixie or phoenix, but i know that both of them would be so so proud of you because of the way you have handled things. everything you have done is so beautiful. your messages to pixie are wonderful and i know that pixie appreciates them from heaven. you’re certainly as much of an angel as her. not many people would offer to talk to someone who is in pain. it takes a great person to try to help others when they’re coping with their own losses. you never fail to amaze me <3 keep doing what you’re doing, i truly hope that 2019 is the best year for you

my year was amazing at first, but about halfway through it crashed. it was the best year of my life at the beginning, but the worst after june. i’ve not been doing well ever since the huge crash, but i’m hoping that with the new things that i’m going to begin, 2019 will be great for me. my friends: the people reading this, everyone here really, are simply the most wonderful people. i appreciate them so so much for dealing with me and my constant mood swings and the way i handle things. my anger, my sadness, my everything, they seem to stay. i hope that they stay in 2019, but i more so hope that they’ll have a better year than me. if they don’t wish for me to be apart of their lives anymore, or if they don’t need me anymore, then that’ll be fine. it’s a wish that’ll never come true, but i wish that 2019 is absolutely sensational for everyone that is part of it. especially whoever is reading this <3

Thank you so much, Emory, it truly means the absolute world to me. I'm actually crying right now, no one has ever said anything so sweet, I love you.
I just want to help everybody. I know what it's like to feel alone, to be suffocated by your own thoughts, to feel like no one cares. I don't want anybody to have to go through that, so if there is even the slightest thing I could help with, I'm here.
Kindness and empathy still exist, I want to prove that. ♡

I'm really sorry about that, I hope 2019 is amazing because you deserve it. You're one of the sweeest people I've ever met in my life. You're incredible. <3

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[KendraHawk]

There's only 1 thing
2 say
3 words
4 you

I hate 2018

I'm sorry to hear that. I hope you have a better year in 2019 xx

2018 is da saddest year.

I'm sorry sbout that, you deserve so much more and I hope 2019 brings that to you. ♡

My 2018 was ok
Happy birthday to ur brother!
And happy New Years!

Well, I hope 2019 is better for you!
He says thank you ♡
Thank you so much, happy New Year to you too!

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[Strel]

2018 had ups and downs
Mostly downs
2019 is gonna be a better year
Idek where id be rn if it werent for this place

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[lucas1901]

I'm sorry to hear that. I hope you have a better year in 2019 xx

I'm sorry sbout that, you deserve so much more and I hope 2019 brings that to you. ♡

Well, I hope 2019 is better for you!
He says thank you ♡
Thank you so much, happy New Year to you too!

Np

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[Kaye]

Just in case you don’t know who I am I’m @¡kaycee! and thank you for helping me awhile back I appreciate it <3

Well this year has been a major flop even for me on here, dang I’m a disaster but a few months ago I lost one of my old close friends to suicide and dang that one hit like a brick on a stick. You know it’s crazy just crazy. But tbh the whole year for me has been filled with negative more negative and some other negative. Lots of tears too. But hey we all just got to ducking PLUNGE into 2019 with our heads up because it’s a FRESH start and we all got THIS. But seriously Kendra I think about Pixie a lot and I know how crazy hard it is trust me I do, so I’m sending lots of love to you and Phoenix. I hope 2019 is a good one for you.

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[IrishPotatooee]

What's your Youtube channel? I'll suscribe xx

I'm really sorry about that, I hope it gets better, you deserve it.

Don't worry, this community is for all ages!! My brother is on here and he just turned 18 today, so you're not that old xd

Look up IrishPotatooe on YT, you'll find me there. I'm sure I'll be fine, there's just a lot of personal life factors into stress and anxiety for me as well as just being socially awkward. XD

Tell him I said happy birthday! I'm still old in comparison to a lot of players though...

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[JeloYunul787]

The 2018 year is became one if the saddest yet rip stan lee stephen hawking stephen hillenburg and much more. So the 2018 is

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