- Apr 9, 2017
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Lets clear this up. Lets end this. To all the people who hold a grudge against me, hate me or don’t give a damn about me should read this. Why? This thread is about revealing myself, to show who I really am. To EXPLAIN. But the first reason is when I say “Good luck have fun” or something. Here is a person who is really rude to me when I said “good luck have fun and happy 4th Of July” :
Okay,I’ll admit it. Sometimes it can be annoying but I just want to be nice. And sometimes I can be harsh. Why? Because This is the internet. You don’t know me irl. Irl I am nice, kind, sweet, generous. But I try to also act like that on brlns. It is like a mask hiding up my true self. But when people are really mean, I used to “roast”. them, or be mean back. But if it is too harsh, I can probably go out of control. But, I changed. I became nicer, and people like SadVibez in the pic try to make me feel bad. I don’t care. I just want to be nice, make people’s day. It can go out of hand. I could be meaner, but I still had my nice side on, trying to keep being neutral, or not that mean, so I won’t start that big of an argument.
The Second Reason is on MicroBattles, and it is multiple. I get bullied bc I lava camp. I rarely do that, but I only do it if it is 4v1, 3v1, getting targeted, or no food. I am sick of it, I’m damn tired of it. I may be toxic, but I quit mb. I quit mb because I may start drama, and I just want to get out of it, and not be a problem or threat to people. I just want to be happy. And yes, I may be a tryhard sometimes, and people call me a noob or pc bc of my pvp. Guess what? I am not a pc. You guys don’t know me. You guys don’t know how much got to me. I get bullied. The real truth is that I pretend to be a nice, kind, sweet girl. But in reality, I am a loner. Some people say I seek attention, which is not true. I just want to help people, be friendly, and make people be happy. But I quit mb because I am “toxic”. I don’t want to cause more trouble, no way.
The Third Reason is Trying to get staff. Okay, secretly I want to be a staff member. People like ripcord (I know you apologized so I won’t talk about it) and djgamerwatcher and some numbers on forums say I want to get my threads pinned, which is true. I want to atleast get one of my threads pinned. And you think being mean/harsh to me will stop me? Oh no. No no no. No way. All I want is to atleast have one of my threads pinned on forums. I even say “welcome to the brokenlens forums!” On new member’s profiles to be kind. I want to be staff deep down, but please, don’t call me a tryhard. Let me do what I want to do just to be nice.
The Fourth reason is “popularity”. People say I want to get popularity, and the truth is I DONT WANT TO BE POPULAR. I am popular in brlns, with good friends, and etc. but all I want to do is to get a lot of wins. I just care about my friends, my stats, and my behavior. People are like “pond thinks she’s the best but she’s not”. I don’t think I am, I want to be. You may call be a wannabe or tryhard, but I don’t care. I want to reach my goals, I’m confident. It just gets me so damn annoyed. I’m sick of this. Atleast say something truthful. You guys don’t know me. You guys just spat out things. This thread is meant to explain why I do these things. Just bc I have a high lvl with a lot of friends, wins, kills, etc. doesn’t mean I think I want to be the best. I TRY to be a pro, especially with my pvp.
There are other reasons. If I was mean to you before, I’m sorry. I wish I could change the past. I want to be FULLY CHANGED. I want to be nice, help the brlns community, be a friendly person. Ppl make me like this. I can be a monster. I want to hide it. Ppl bully me, judge me, even insult me, and tell lies about me and try to make me feel bad. I pretend that doesn’t make me feel bad, but deep inside it does. And yes, sometimes I brag. And I don’t brag to make people want to be like me, or like me, or to get popularity. I want to brag because I want to tell my stats, just because I tell my stats doesn’t mean I’m bragging. So please, if there are people who hate me that don’t have Forums, please tell this to them. I want them to FORGIVE me, not hate me, anymore. Also, I can be a hypocrite. I may camp on OITC and usually I say “camper” if someone camps. But guess what? I do that too, and I don’t call people campers. If I even did that, that was in the damn past. People may disgust me for this, but the real reason I do this because I want to win, I don’t like losing. I understand that you guys dislike it, but guess what? It is BROKENlens. All I want is to be happy. Don’t you guys understand?
“Why did you post this thread” I posted this thread to tell why I understand that you guys hate me, and I’m sorry if I have bad grammar. Listen, I didn’t post this thread to make you guys feel bad about me, the truth is that I posted this thread because I want to tell you guys WHY I act like this, the truth about me and my personality, why I can be so damn harsh. I want to control, but it is YOU guys who make me like this. If I am too mean, I’m sorry. I really really try. This thread hopefully won’t cause any drama. Again, I don’t want to you guys to feel “sorry” for me. Even if I was mean to you, I’m sorry, and it’s in the past so get over it. I just wanted to explain to you guys this because... if I want to spend a lot of time on my life for brlns, I want you guys to know me well, not spat out lies about me, and bully me, or insult. I just want to be happy. (And by the way staff please lock this thread bc it may start/cause drama.)
I understand that I made a lot of drama threads, or created drama on forums, like the “Dan bullied Sneeu” argument, and the lying about pandee cross teaming with tschibi or something else. I’m still sorry. I wasn’t thinking about my choices. But now, I changed. I am nice, helpful, and friendly now. That was in the past, now is the present. Now I may ask to you guys, or my haters, may you please forgive me?
The Second Reason is on MicroBattles, and it is multiple. I get bullied bc I lava camp. I rarely do that, but I only do it if it is 4v1, 3v1, getting targeted, or no food. I am sick of it, I’m damn tired of it. I may be toxic, but I quit mb. I quit mb because I may start drama, and I just want to get out of it, and not be a problem or threat to people. I just want to be happy. And yes, I may be a tryhard sometimes, and people call me a noob or pc bc of my pvp. Guess what? I am not a pc. You guys don’t know me. You guys don’t know how much got to me. I get bullied. The real truth is that I pretend to be a nice, kind, sweet girl. But in reality, I am a loner. Some people say I seek attention, which is not true. I just want to help people, be friendly, and make people be happy. But I quit mb because I am “toxic”. I don’t want to cause more trouble, no way.
The Third Reason is Trying to get staff. Okay, secretly I want to be a staff member. People like ripcord (I know you apologized so I won’t talk about it) and djgamerwatcher and some numbers on forums say I want to get my threads pinned, which is true. I want to atleast get one of my threads pinned. And you think being mean/harsh to me will stop me? Oh no. No no no. No way. All I want is to atleast have one of my threads pinned on forums. I even say “welcome to the brokenlens forums!” On new member’s profiles to be kind. I want to be staff deep down, but please, don’t call me a tryhard. Let me do what I want to do just to be nice.
The Fourth reason is “popularity”. People say I want to get popularity, and the truth is I DONT WANT TO BE POPULAR. I am popular in brlns, with good friends, and etc. but all I want to do is to get a lot of wins. I just care about my friends, my stats, and my behavior. People are like “pond thinks she’s the best but she’s not”. I don’t think I am, I want to be. You may call be a wannabe or tryhard, but I don’t care. I want to reach my goals, I’m confident. It just gets me so damn annoyed. I’m sick of this. Atleast say something truthful. You guys don’t know me. You guys just spat out things. This thread is meant to explain why I do these things. Just bc I have a high lvl with a lot of friends, wins, kills, etc. doesn’t mean I think I want to be the best. I TRY to be a pro, especially with my pvp.
There are other reasons. If I was mean to you before, I’m sorry. I wish I could change the past. I want to be FULLY CHANGED. I want to be nice, help the brlns community, be a friendly person. Ppl make me like this. I can be a monster. I want to hide it. Ppl bully me, judge me, even insult me, and tell lies about me and try to make me feel bad. I pretend that doesn’t make me feel bad, but deep inside it does. And yes, sometimes I brag. And I don’t brag to make people want to be like me, or like me, or to get popularity. I want to brag because I want to tell my stats, just because I tell my stats doesn’t mean I’m bragging. So please, if there are people who hate me that don’t have Forums, please tell this to them. I want them to FORGIVE me, not hate me, anymore. Also, I can be a hypocrite. I may camp on OITC and usually I say “camper” if someone camps. But guess what? I do that too, and I don’t call people campers. If I even did that, that was in the damn past. People may disgust me for this, but the real reason I do this because I want to win, I don’t like losing. I understand that you guys dislike it, but guess what? It is BROKENlens. All I want is to be happy. Don’t you guys understand?
“Why did you post this thread” I posted this thread to tell why I understand that you guys hate me, and I’m sorry if I have bad grammar. Listen, I didn’t post this thread to make you guys feel bad about me, the truth is that I posted this thread because I want to tell you guys WHY I act like this, the truth about me and my personality, why I can be so damn harsh. I want to control, but it is YOU guys who make me like this. If I am too mean, I’m sorry. I really really try. This thread hopefully won’t cause any drama. Again, I don’t want to you guys to feel “sorry” for me. Even if I was mean to you, I’m sorry, and it’s in the past so get over it. I just wanted to explain to you guys this because... if I want to spend a lot of time on my life for brlns, I want you guys to know me well, not spat out lies about me, and bully me, or insult. I just want to be happy. (And by the way staff please lock this thread bc it may start/cause drama.)
I understand that I made a lot of drama threads, or created drama on forums, like the “Dan bullied Sneeu” argument, and the lying about pandee cross teaming with tschibi or something else. I’m still sorry. I wasn’t thinking about my choices. But now, I changed. I am nice, helpful, and friendly now. That was in the past, now is the present. Now I may ask to you guys, or my haters, may you please forgive me?