Sometimes I feel that it may be best to keep a smile on your face even in the worst of situations, though it is never best to keep your feelings in, so I think you making this and letting some of your feelings out was very brave of you! I'm honestly not the best person to provide support unless I were to properly know you, so I can say something like "feel free to come to speak to me if you need any support!". Though I think maybe if you had anyone to speak to and they are willing to listen and give nice advice then be sure to express yourself as much as you can. Don't let anyone speak down to you and tell you that you are wrong for expressing your feelings in your words.