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If I’m being honest everything’s been falling apart on me and I’ve become lost again. My college is closing so I’m being forced to transfer to who knows where cause I haven’t decided yet… that alone tore me up and I cried for a few days. The bowling team here they’re family and I don’t want to leave them but I really have no choice.

Of course I can try to stay in contact with them but I just know things won’t be the same… And it all just really sucks. I started to open up with them, heck I was/am falling in love with one… and then not even a week later this place was closing too- that and the college closing hitting at the same time really sucked

But here I lose some people… but the ones I’ve truly bonded with I’ll still have. And then to top it all off a family member of mine has cancer… it’s been really rough.
Anyways I’m sorry that was all negativity- Ill do some positives now

Let’s see… I’m not sure I’ve told you about A much. He’s this guy on the bowling team I’ve been falling for- which has its up and downs. We are just friends but he knows how I feel- he’s made me spell it out for him twice. We’ve hung out now and then, deep conversations, it’s been really nice

I really do like him… but he does also annoy me xd what is it with men and saying “yeah”? Like not even as an answer… I’ll make a statement or something and he will say “yeah” WHY??? Anyways- remember that play I talked about before?

I got invited to an award party for it and I get to bring a plus one… and you could probably guess I asked A to come with me. I wasn’t expecting him to agree but he actually did- even asked me if he had to wear a suit… I’m tempted to also ask him to come out with me sometime during the next week for a bike ride

My college decided to start renting out bikes for us and I’ve been taking advantage of it with some friends and I think it would be something nice to do with A since he’s also a gamer guy who stays in his room all the time xD it’ll be good to get him out of his room a few times before we run out of time…

And actually he’s kinda made me determined to finally get my license despite my fear of driving. If I go to this college I have on my list and he goes to one nearby… I could still hang out with him… but that’s a lot of if’s in my mind

I also got to shoot a gun this month for the first time ever. I completely missed xD but it was fun… we also did a paint night last night and I swear each time it sparks my artistic side but it fizzles away before I can really do something