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My classes got pushed back a week case of Covid and yknow cause my school got hacked which is just lOveLy. So it’s been just practice all day every day. Kinda sucks but yknow it’ll help right?

It kinda doesn’t hit me until late at night like this where I’m just laying in bed listening to music. Like years ago I wouldn’t think I’d be where I am now, crazy right? I’ve told idek how many stories about these friends I’ve got but recently I’m kinda just sitting back and noticing I’m not exactly there

There being like.. part of the group. I don’t get invited to much and I don’t talk all that much but I want to be close with all them… but maybe I just won’t be able to? Idk I get this feeling a lot with all friends. It sucks

Like today was a friends birthday. She got a lot of messages and we took her out. My birthday.. I got one person to say happy birthday to me and that was it. I find it pathetic that it bothers me so much but I can’t help how deeply things feel yknow? Maybe it’s just like this cause I don’t tell anyone how I usually feel xD

You would totally know I hate talking about how I feel xD anyways back to practice my dude I’m so SORE. 6 hour practices are not normal… and I’m lowkey getting frustrated too cause my coaches are just butts and don’t explain well. Like perfect foul line position

You foot, knee, and shoulders all should be aligned, and you should have your arm out to keep your balance. Well I never put my arm out cause I feel stupid doing it lol and well we did a mock tournament and I focused on putting my arm out

Well my score absolutely sucked so I said screw it im not gonna do it and just bowl. I did so much better. I went from like 140’s to a 220+ just not thinking about my arm. And my coach also pulled me aside and is like stop getting in your head when I was doing okay?

Anyways he said focus on perfect foul line position and I just said I’m not doing the arm I can’t focus and do it and he said he didn’t care like UM WHAT? THATS WHAT WE PRACTICED??? Ugh anyways xD I’m also letting this guy bother me and I really shouldn’t

Like I know better and I know he knows but he still gets to me… I don’t show it so idk how he knows but he does okay he will look me dead in the eyes and SMILE. Nothing but evil from that guy but uGH

Oh we did a little secret Santa with the teams. The guy who got me got these cute little Genshin Impact keychains for me and they’re so cute… the guy I had I gave him 3 sport team shirts and a little gag gift which the whole team found hilarious so I’m super happy as to how it went