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i remember how during history, i would learn about historical figures having beliefs that all humans were born evil. i would lie if i said i disagreed with that. well, for me, its more like how people become evil as a result of bad influences and other external factors. because of this, ive lost my faith in humanity, and i dont really believe how society will ever be able to achieve the desired utopia.

sorry if i worded this wrong earlier, but i actually didnt work when i was young. i was saying how my childhood was cut short mentally after my mother constantly reminded me of how important college was in order to get a degree to get a job. i never actually got a job when i was younger, but my mothers pestering would never end, causing me to constantly think about how stressful and hard the future would be.

its kind of complicated when i talk anything about sports or any talents since im actually am a very average person. ive participated in so many activities including: art, singing, ballet, tap dancing, traditional chinese dancing, tennis, swimming, violin, piano, cheerleading, chess, etc. having to do in so many things, but never sticking to one and excelling at it has made me the weak-minded person i am today.

"average at everything, exceeding in nothing." and "jack of all trades, master of none, but better than the master at one." would probably be good quotes to describe me. god, i hate life and my average self. its so frustrating.

ghosts? not really, but i always have a fear of things, perhaps shadows, lurking in the dark. i dont necessarily believe in the paranormal, but that doesnt mean that it doesnt freak me out because it certainly does.

when im trying to fall asleep and look around my room, i sometimes fear that theres something lurking in the shadows, the corners, and the closets of my room.

its lowkey terrifying sometimes- what the human mind can imagine and fear.

what about you? do you have a fear of ghosts?

In a way, yes, I would also disagree with such. People are not borned with evil and hate but more as how they grow up and what influences them to become evil toward certain things. There’s probably a philosophical argument explaining such a statement but I’m too lazy to assure myself about it so I’ll go with my beliefs.

But that said, with how I see things, there’s still a chance that the world could reach or even experience a world of utopia for a minute. However, with such apathetic people around the world that decided to have such negative views on everything, then I don’t see the world achieving such a thing anytime soon.

Oh, my apologies then lol. I’m not that good at understanding someone’s toon through text, but thanks for the clarification. Still, the feeling of being reminded on optining great grades and hoping to get into a good college at such a young age is a bit irksome and frustrating if I were in your shoes.

I will admit, I have no clue what I want to achieve with my life and my goals for the future or college, but I still have 2 years to give a good thought about it and decide what I wish to achieve. It distresses me sometimes at night knowing that in 2 years, I will be 18 and have a completely different-

-livelihood ahead of me without having my parents around and work as my top priorities 24/7; that and education. Life is meaningless the more I think about it.

That’s quite a lot of activities to participate in if I do say so myself. I’ve always aimed to practice and get at least decent amounts of activities but with my schedule all over the place, the only activities I’m really proud to say that I participated in and still practice to this day are playing the piano, creative writing, and I guess singing-?

- I don’t really take part in many clubs that peak the same interests as mine but I do wish to improve on my art drawings and learn how to draw without having a tutorial next to me.

And in a sense, yes, I do believe in ghosts. Though, I haven’t had any real experience with ghost activities besides doing the charlie charlie challenge when I was in 4 grade and anytime I would get near a source of light (lamps, lightbulbs,) they would flicker for about 10 seconds before returning to its normal form. Hence, this is why I was terrified to be alone in a room for the past 2 years and the-

- flickering continued to happen until 8 grade, (4 years straight).

Life is phenomenal in its own way. Really strange. I also blame Youtube for all the ghost videos I have been watching.

What’s your favorite form of art paintings?

i also have no idea what i would like to do when i get older. if anyone were to ask what my life goal was, i would probably say how i want to become a doctor, but in truth, im quite unsure. since ive been told ever since i was little to become successful by becoming a doctor, i never really have had any interests or ambitions of my own. all of my so-called "goals" are my mother's.

hopefully, like you, ill be able to find out what i want to be soon.

drawing is nice. i like to doodle sometimes- drawing hands, eyes, ears, lips, etc. ive recently tried to do some digital art, but im not quite good at it since the art program i use isnt the best. to be honest, i kind of prefer to sketch on paper, rather than drawing digitally.

flickering lights? that is indeed sketchy. i would also be terrified to be in that room if i were you. i would feel so haunted, god, that doesnt sound fun at all. im glad that the light flickering is gone, but man, do i feel bad for you.

to be honest, ive never really thought about the different forms of art paintings since ive only ever painted oil paintings of nature and architecture.

if i had to say, i would probably say that expressionism is my favorite form of art since i find humans to be quite interesting. stupid and complex, but interesting. seeing how human emotions are portrayed through paintings is so eye-opening- in good ways and bad ways.

what about you? whats your favorite form of art paintings?

My only backup plan if everything I strive to achieve burns to the ground is business, but in the long run, it’s not something I would enjoy looking forward to everyday and to be frank, a business job would probably burn me out before I have a chance to even begin working in a business field as I could imagine the studies I have to overgo first.