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I cannot even begin to imagine how much you're missed by everyone who knew you "in real life". by Phoenix and by your mum and by everybody else. the pain must be unimaginable. I can't imagine nor do I want to.

I don't really know what to say but I feel I should be writing more. I don't know what to say except to tell you how much we miss you and how badly we wish you were here. your entire being was so beautiful. your aura was as colourful and inspiring as the rainbow of hues in your profile picture.

your heart was bigger than practically anyone's. the time and energy you put into listening to and understanding and empathising with other people, the endless care and compassion you gave, that's almost unrivalled. you were such a beautifully loud and bright and brilliant soul, while simultaneously having the capacity to be gentle and soft when you needed to be.

I never got the chance to meet you in real life but just from exchanging text messages over the internet, it seemed so easy to instantly know what kind of person you were. the best kind. the world would be a much better place if it were filled with humans like you, Pixie. you were truly the best of humanity.

you seemed to have everything. no human being is perfect but you seemed to come closer than anyone. kindness and patience; confidence and a sense of self-worth; intelligence and wisdom; charm and humour. you were truly a force to be reckoned with; a powerful presence and an incredibly bright light in a world that sometimes appears to be lacking in light.

you were an angel. truly. this world did not deserve you and perhaps that's why... we didn't deserve you, Pixie, but we're infinitely grateful that you were here. you changed the world. you really did. you left it in a better place, you changed so many people for the better.

and you did it so effortlessly, so elegantly, so gracefully. you changed the world by being you. that's such an admirable thing and one of the greatest, if not the greatest and highest thing that someone can aspire to do with their life. to be authentically yourself and leave such an everlasting, beautiful mark on the world.