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I've never had a genuine boy crush in my life and that's because I'm a dyke I mean look at my tumblr
I literally forced myself to obsess over men because I wanted to be "normal" and it's sad

and sometimes I still feel like I'm going to end up in a lavender marriage anyway even though I crave a woman

because I'm still in a lot of denial about being gay even if I all I do is yell about it
I'm the furthest thing from out yet everybody knows I bet because my mother has seen my tumblr page and the amount of nude gals in it

sighhhhhhhh

should I lavender up anyway

at least I would feel less ashamed

i wldnt- it’s okay to feel in denial abt what you’re attracted to. it takes some people longer to be okay with themselves abt it it’s normal really imo. if you end up in a lavender marriage you’d prob get more f-ed up tbh

yeah you're right, i just feel like such a loser sometimes and I god a hoard load of guys who want to ♥♥♥♥ me so it's just easier to give in even if that won't make me happy

ur not a loser ;(( ik it’s hard but don’t get yourself in situations you aren’t comfortable with. it’s easy to give in but it’ll cause more damage in the future prob

thank u

I just need reassurance sometimes bc i still hate myself

don’t u seem like an amazing person ;((