another year has gone by already, wow. it will be july before i know it, marking the three year anniversary of your death.
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KendraHawk
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it's still so hard to believe that you're truly gone. i think about you a lot, and sometimes i find myself thinking too much.
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i find myself thinking too far into the past, imagining a time when you were actually here.
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i find myself lost in my mind, thinking about what your next album is going to sound like. thinking about what places i wish you would go to on your next tour.
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it sounds so pathetic, you know? that i am hurting so badly, over the death of someone i never even met.
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but gosh, chester, your death took one of the biggest tolls on my life. it shook my routine apart and i find it hard to get myself together even now.
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i find it hard to think about. how is it, that the person who kept me alive, had thoughts so dark that i couldn't possibly picture them in my head?
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how is it, that the person who has convinced me to not take my own life, has taken their own?
KendraHawk
your death still tears me apart in ways that i didn't even think was possible.