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What's going on Addy, love?

Just...several things. I hate feeling this way, y'know? I don't like to feel this way. I hate hurting and feeling like it wont ever get better. I'm not good with change, and there's sure been a lot of that lately. Everything's changing, it's horrible!

Every time I try to take a break from this, it's like my mind won't let me. But i really want to. This place has just been a reminder of so many sad things that leave me feeling frustrated and sad.

Maybe you need some time away. It's okay if you need a break from it all. I was dealing with that from discord. And I was in a reply dark moment. My mom told me to take some time away.

And people are so mean, like they have no regard for human feelings. And then after everything I end up blaming myself for everything and why people hate me. Its my fault, I'm too sensitive. There's like only 3 people here that like me. I blame myself for that and I wanna leave this place and never come back.

I listened to her too. I uninstalled discord and I haven't been on since and my emotional and mental state is a lot better due to it. I know change is hard, but change is good. We need it in our lives like we need the storms. They're the only way we will grow stronger.

And I try to leave, I really do, but I'm sucked back here. Theres people here I care about, like you and alsie, and i wouldn't wanna leave you guys

Brokenlens has been a huge part of my life, and maybe that's why i can't let go. Sometimes i wish that i could just redo everything and get a fresh start.

If being here is hurting take some time away. It might be required girl. I will still be here if you need me of course, but if being here is causing the most damage girl...you gotta make a choice.

One thing I told someone is that your past doesn't define you. We can't fix the past mistakes. But we can let them effect us and jeapordize our futures.

I will try, I've been trying so hard to stay away from here because it's just unhealthy for me rn. I hope you will see me again soon cookie <3

You are in total control of the present, and you can shape your future. All this, it's a choice. It's your fault because you choose to let it be. No one is saying it's your fault baby girl. No one is blaming you anymore. You are not your past. Your past cannot define who you are today.

And if you just want to come back to have someone to talk to you know I'm always open. I'm always here. I won't ever leave you alone girl. I know it's so hard accepting change. But, we all must grow.

Thank you cookie, for understanding, for being here, thank you. Ilysm <3

You have to take the time to catch your bearings, freshen your mind, look ahead. Addy, darling, you have to come to realize no one is perfect.