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No one helps.
Who helped me with training? No one
Who helped me to do push ups?
No one
Who helped me to pull up a 55kg bag or smh?
No one
Who helped me when i got chocked?
No one
Who helped me to bring me up?
No one
Myself ofc

And you know what happened later? THE MALES WHO CHOCKED ME THEY DIDNT DESERVE ANYTHING AND IM HERE (EVEN NOWDAYS) GOING TO DOCTOR JUST TO FIX MY ANGER, HELLO?

And now all ppl will come here and they are gonna say "nuu i support u" few hours later they dont care so its fine to have my stupid lonely life

You really don’t deserve the hate Shadow, and no it’s not easy for me either, probs not easy for anyone at all.
I get ignored everyday by my own friends irl and online, but ofc idc anymore which is why I grew so independent and introverted. My parents never have time for me and my friends don’t find time to schedule hang outs with me, which is why I chose to waste my life on video games

When I got my 11k TSW wins yesterday, no one but Dorito and my other friend in our party congratulated me. 7 friends online minus the 2 friends who actually noticed. 5 friends ignored me when I yelled in all caps of my achievement I was proud of.

I’m the isolated one in my family, I stay in my room all day to play games and only come out to eat or go to the bathroom. My brothers play with each other, and they don’t include me in their games. My lil bro tried, but he thought I wasn’t the type to play his games so he stopped trying.

The only things that make me happy are my best friends and just being nice to ppl. My normal friends only have small talks with me while my best friends care the world for me, and so it’s not everyone that cares about me, it’s very little of them that actually care. When I make ppl smile, it helps me cuz I learned to be nice even tho they might not be nice back

My mom hates nearly everything about me, how I like to dress, how I do my hair, how my handwriting looks, my manners, and my hobbies. I get yelled at everyday by her and she once told me something’s wrong with me and that I’m ugly. No one helps me with homework or anything I do.

Projects?
I work on them alone while the rest of the group works together
Homework?
Done by myself. I help my lil bro with his homework and my dad once did all of my older bro’s homework, but no one asked if they can help me.
School?
I learn and take note of everything cuz no one can for me. Also cuz my friends and classmates depend on me cuz I’m always the one helping them

Everything’s stupid
The only kinds of ppl I know out there are the ones who care, the ones who don’t care and ignore you, and the ones that hate every bone in your body and hurt you either physically or mentally. Probs only 0.000001% of the 7 billion ppl in this world actually know about My existence

My mom tells me there’s ppl talking about how ugly I am when I try to shut it out by telling her no one is. I think my lil bro once swore at me, he’s learning swear words already and he’s only 8. My parents talk everyday about me in Filipino (Tagalog) and think I’m too stupid to understand what they say but no I lived long enough to know that they talk about how much of a disappointment I am

Nothing makes sense, the ppl who hurt others don’t get any consequences, and those who deserve punishments the least get them. I could’ve lived my life in solitude and maybe even give up my life but no I wanted to try and find those who can bring me up. Ofc I failed a thousand times, but I just kept trying cuz it’s not like I have anything to lose

But yeah, somehow simply showing kindness to strangers gets them to be your friend, and continuously doing that gets them closer to you until they become best friends. So you’re not alone, ofc I have a dark past no one knows but hey it’s now out here.

So Shadow, don’t give up on our friendship cuz you think I like Dorito more than you. It’s your choice, and I’m not forcing you, but you are a good person at heart, even if no one else sees it, you shouldn’t let anyone take that from you.