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i cannot believe it's been two years already, it feels like it was only yesterday that i first saw the news. it's crazy how long it's been since you passed, especially because for me it hasn't even fully registered that you're truly gone.

you were one of my favourite people ever, i've never known anyone just like you. you were kind, talented, and so inspiring. you were able to make anyone who listened to your music feel like they weren't alone. that is such a beautiful gift - i know that you helped so many people from taking their own life too.

you know, from when i was young i have always dreamed of going to one of your concerts. i had never been to any concert before, so i didn't really know what that meant, apart from seeing you live. hearing your beautiful voice, hearing my favourite people in the entire world come together and play the music that saved my life.

and now that i actually have gone to my first concert, i know what it's all about. i know that feeling of excitement when you realise that you're in the same room as your idols, and crying when they start to sing as you sing along with them. i know what it's like to be so proud of them, shouting "woo!" and screaming at the top of your lungs.

and so now it's even more horrible. the fact that i can never meet you. never hug you. never talk to you. get your autograph. tell you everything you've done for me. tell you that i wouldn't even be alive if it weren't for you. you don't understand how that eats me up inside. it hurts so bad and i hate the world for it. i don't understand why they made you suffer.

i just wanted to thank you for everything you did for me. i never got the chance to and it hurts me a lot to know that i never will now. but you, your songs, and the rest of the band, are some of the best things that's ever happened to me.