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I'm officially a teenager now, I guess... I don't feel any different. I still miss you. It's hard to forget about you when you gave me so much to remember. I don't want to forget you anyway. I never will. But it hurts me. A lot more than people notice.

You know, I'm not as mad anymore. I wouldn't at all call myself mad at the world for taking you away. Now... now, I'm just sad that I lost my best friend.

I don't think I'll ever stop writing to you, you know. It's hard, because you were the person I told everything to and now you have no idea what's going on in my life. So I keep updating you on it.

It's 7:03, I'm watching Pitch Perfect 3 right now. I know Phoenix loved those movies, because she introduced me to them. You know, I didn't want to ever be sad or cry on my birthday. I did cry once but that was because I face planted, but I didn't think I would ever cry because I lost my best friend.

I would probably be talking to you right now, if you were still here. You know, I still miss you. I'm making new memories, but I still wish you and Phoenix were in them. I miss you as the days pass. I miss you as I smile and laugh. But it never gets easier for me.

Sometimes it feels pointless, you know. Writing to you. Because in the end, every letter, every word, every sentence, every prayer, will not make up for the fact that you're never coming back.

I've spent almost half an hour talking to you. Since its my birthday, my family were kind enough to take me ice skating! And then we're going to a restaraunt. How lucky am I?!?! I miss you, though.