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I'm not a nice or kind person. I'm a person who puts on some facade to make herself feel happy. To push the entire pain behind me and I guessed all those emotions caught up to me and I left my anger on you.

To be honest, I wasn't planning to talk to you again or ever, for the fact. But when I was gone for nearly a month and came back and saw the message you left for me, then maybe my pride isn't worth losing a close friend of mine.

I made the mistake of letting my pride take control of how I actually feel and I won't make the same mistake again.
Especially, since I lost someone who I used to always talk to over a little stupid fight. A fight that is clearly meant for no one to come out victorious.

This is a great apologise I gotta say cause there is really nothing to fight about or argue around it.
Listen. I always thought I was the bad guy behind all this cause I thought or something that I was the one who started this whole thing and by that, ending our friendship in a snap. I just never knew that you were in a tough or whatever was going on and let all your madness on me and leading thi-

-ngs like this. And for that, I can see why this wasn't just me or you. Pushing all your anger at once and letting all your emotions at once can really do damage to people. In this scenario if I'm correct, you built up all the pain you had in you and went to the nearest person (which was me) and blew all that madness to make yourself feel prouder and that's where things went downhill. Let's jus-

-ts say that neither of us was gonna talk to each other ever again due to the fact that I didn't even know what the heck was going on but by the behavior I saw, I knew you weren't going to do that anytime soon. But as a man's word, I'd the guts to apologise for whatever I did and went to your profile and did so until you returned and hopefully things may change. Losing someone that you used to

talk to everyday about random things is really unfortunate to see. It isn't the pride or facade you should be pushed agents you but the mistakes in our past. But I guess as you said already and I can't really argue here, this fight clearly wasn't for anyone to win but to realize what we have done.

I didn't ignore you because I wanted to make myself proud or something like that. I actually enjoyed talking to you as a friend, and I've just been hurt in so many ways that I think of the worst scenarios.