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I'm sorry I'm being so short and snappy but this hurts. It actually hurts.

And I don't know how to fix it without entirely snapping in two.

Eric I swear, I am sorry. I'm already regretting saying anything that hurts you. I really am sorry. I honestly never intended to take it out on you.

So feel free to take it out on me. It's obvious I'm causing you too much hurt for you to handle. So take it out on me. I deserve it.

Now you're just drawling attraction here. Once people see about this, they will never see me the same again and that hurts as much as you do.
This is Me v.s Myself I get it but it's also you that is getting involved with it. I'm sorry you have to go through this but it's me. Not others.

I don't like you cause you always"happy" with other yet not to me? Wait no I mean you don't really have anything with me (can't say that or else)

I shut you down for a reason and that's you. This is gotta end somehow or else people will want to make me leave cause of this.

Look Cinder, I can't take it on you or else one of your friends will start "Fighting" with me on how disrespectful i was with you so ya I can't

Look I'm sorry but I can't, other people already saw what I wrote to you and now, I can't fight it back so now the best option I have is to leave

I am not drawing attention here. That is the last thing I'd ever do. No one is liking this, besides, everyone on your profile would support you not me.

I was happy with you that's the thing! I was happy to be around you, to be your friend. I was happy with you.

Honestly, just say whatever you want to. If there are issues, they'll be sorted out in time. If you keep them to yourself they'll just eat away at you

I get it. Not everyone wants to open up and someone please slap back to reality because obviously even though all my efforts are just to try and be friends with someone or even apologise, obviously I am a sin.

Eric, this is going to end. But only if it's resolved.

Then take it out on me in a conversation. You think people are going to fight you on this but no one will. I am nobody in this crowd; no one is going to fight for me.

Ignore what other people say. They judge and make assumptions about a person who they don't know. But leaving won't change that

Even if you do leave, there are always going to be people who will try to drag you down. People who will push you out of the way to come first.

There are people like that every where. So you need to surround yourself with people who feel and act like sunshine to guide you in your dark times.

Eric I wish I could be someone like that to you. But you don't want me to

This is how we're going to go eh? Ok.

Yes you are. Some people are making conversation about it and I hate it. Nobody is liking this cause of me. I hate it.

I was happy to until you did something to me

Ya no, I'm not getting a report just from this unless you want to cry then yes

Cinder, you make stuff come alive and I have fill respect on what you're saying cause it's all true on what you're saying

Eric, this is up to you. I'm allowing you full reign of how this goes. Everything that happens, every outcome imaginable will be up to you and the choices you make.

Who? I'll ask them to step down. Well if it makes you feel better, I don't have any major fans at the moment either.

I don't even fully know what I did. And it's killing me because I feel so responsible for your pain that it is honestly killing me

Eric, it is you that controls what becomes a part of the living or a part of the spiritual world. I am merely a minor part of your story and I definitely hold no power over what happens to you or how you respond to it. Only you have that power

I can't really say who hates me cause I hate him as well so I don't think it's nice to say names but you know him and I definitely think he knows me. We both hate each other's and that becomes with Icy but let's not bring here in this.

Listen, This whole thing is killing me and I want it to stop so let's do this

Let's see if we can forget about this

That's one person. Eric, you have friends who care about you. I know who it is. But believe me when I say this; you have people who care, people who would do anything to make you smile.

Eric, it's killing me too. So why not just push it further. We're just saving the hurt for another day. Why not just let it all out? Why not just save yourself the hurt?

I wouldn't even know where to begin on trying to forget this

But sadly, instead of making me happy, they're making me depressed

It really hurts to tell the truth, even to a friend so that one thing I don't want to do is to hurt more of my friends

I guess I can say the same

That isn't good ;-;

I know

So, what should we do?

Idk, I feel like I'm breaking apart

Sometimes breaking is good. Sometimes it gives us an opportunity to become someone entirely new.

Try not to fight the pain; instead, embrace it. Accept it. Don't rush the process. You need to keep swimming in the deep end to train your muscles.

Yes it will hurt but you will become stronger from it.

I'm sorry for everything I've done. I hope that one day we'll be okay.

I'll fight for it. Every single day. But I hope we get there.